...and I don't really want school to start again. I don't suppose anyone really does, but I don't know....I'm just NOT looking forward to the stresses of finals. Thank GOD I didn't get in to Anne Frank, that's all I can say. eek
Still, a part of me is ready to jump back in to the hustle and bustle of school life....it's like there's this rhythm of schedule and routine. Sort of a combination of singing in chorus, Miss Wallrab speaking French, the pounding of feet in the hallway, Mr. Buccolo's voice reading excerpts from Great Ex, shouts in the lunchroom, and that weird hush that falls over everyone right before a performance in acting...and all those sounds create this sort of...beat, rhythm, drumroll, call it what you will, of school life. It's THAT that I won't mind going back to. Not the stress. I'm definitely not looking forward to stress.
But hey, I can handle stress. I've handled it before.
As long as I start going to bed earlier....my goal is ten. That's eight, maybe eight and a half hours of sleep each night, which is like, totally perfect. And ten is....well, it's fairly reasonable, I guess. Not compared to winter break, but when I'm always tired enough at ten, I just want to do other things.
My writing is going to be a problem. I've been writing at like, 12 or 1 in the morning over break, it's become my schedule. And my work has been rather good, seemingly the later I work. I have this vision of myself at 35, hopefully a fairly successful writer, wearing night goggles and typing away like a fiend at a laptop because I've become nocturnal. eek I do like daylight..... sweatdrop
I LIKE typing late at night, is the thing. I feel that my writing has more of an other-worldly quality, like it's not me writing anymore, it's a mysterious girl in the dark. I feel that it sometimes lacks passion when I write during the day.
Ah well. Perhaps I can write late on weekends.
Anyhow, I'm off to make a list of things to do tomorrow to prepare for school. And then, of course, to write. xd
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And I want to write but I can't because I f*****g backed myself up into a corner. I hate you. I never really thought about how angry I am that I can't write.
But, I agree with you about school. I guess that's basically how it's going for me. Like Claire said, like, literally a year ago, most of our best memories are made at school.
P.S. I don't actually hate you. I'm just frustrated about the whole writing thing. *pats you on head*
P.S.S. I really would like to read your story. So....you have three options (one of which I know you won't do):
1. Start posting your story
2. E-mail it to me
3. Print it out (which we already know you won't do, but, hey, why not?)