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So the last few days of my life have been mixed with rather a bunch of emotions I still can look back and say: "what the ********?"

Anyway, that's not what I meant to say.

this is:

Worse day of the year is coming and once again,and my undercovered depression is coming back to its roots. I've been trying to resist, I've been
trying to overcome it, but deep inside, I keep failing.

Today was the saddest day of it all, and even if you saw me, and thought I was in an awesome mood, I was not. I was actually shattered.

I did sloppy at school, unwilling at work (and somehow I was soo busy today at work to be even worse) and now, Im consumed at home.

To keep my mind away from these thoughts, Im reading a book, which is very awesome, and as usual gaia (www.gaiaonline.com) and music.

But I cant be stuck forever in an imaginary world you know, I got to face reality, even if it hurts the most. I must be strong. My fact is, I just cant bare to be ALONE. that is all. and its because I feel alone, that this somewhat sadness consumes me.

Also, a good friend of mine died today, to make things even worse. Then again, everyone's dying lately :

Anyway, if you have something to say let me know, im really in the mood for opinions, advice or jokes, simply anything.

Maybe the sushi revolution bless you all, Maria.