To be alone was once all I knew in life, for myy first 8 years of life I only had one friend, the grandson of my dad's boss. He was and is a good friend but unlike him and everyone else I only knew my family, him, and my teachers. No one else was the real deal friend, they were just people I knew in school. So for those years I grew to think of things that others take for granit, I started to purposly distence myself from other kids, I started to grow up early. Then I made a new friend, and hes still my friend after 11 years, at first it was just a friendship at our babysitters, but then our parents started to date and he became a true friend- a brother of sorts. And then four years ago I made new friends again, few left a few stayed some friendships disolved, but I wasn't alone as much and what was better was that these people were almost as me, I finally had a group to belong to, but as with my past these friends, try as I may, I saw too few of after school. So still now I am alone - seperated of my pack as it were. And now with my new career I am to under take I fear that after this fall those friends I fought to have all my life will once again disappear and I will have to spend another 18 years in search of a group that I may call friends. Oh well I guess it can't be helped but I wonder what I will learn in the silence of my solitude this time, the secrets I will learn will be interesting to say the lest, I just wish another will come along and understand what I say in this.
 Nilador · Sun Jan 27, 2008 @ 07:23pm · 0 Comments |
