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I don't know what it is that keeps me watching instant star? The concept is good but I swear they could have wrote it better. They could get so much deeper into stuff. Like for example her friends and how she learns to maintain her best friends since she was real young.

I value my friends over anything any day. Like for example this dude who was imitating my friend pissed me off so bad. I wanted to throw and jaw breaker at him ( thats assult if your 18 or older and I am), but yah couldn't do that. I didn't realize it till later that he was trying to pick up my other friend. So basically he thought she was hot and wanted to get to know more of her. If I realized that I would have kicked him i his balls since at the time I'm sure thats what he was thinking of. I regret it now, and I kind of thing it would have been hilarious and maybe got him to leave us the ******** alone. He reminded me of one of those little boys in like 7th grade (even though he had a big bald patch (ew ). Little kids usually tease little kids not adults teasing adults. My friends helped me out so many times before the least I could do is relieve the pain in my ear as well as theirs with a simple kick in the balls. Then he would call me a b***h. Before he could even say anything I would be like " I might as well say thank you before you even call me a b***h". Nothing would happen to me except a hell a lot of laughter. It would have been worth it. I've been called a b***h so many times in the past (when i was one ). But now I don't care and if some dush bag that I will never see again calls me a b***h so be it cause he his lack of judgement anyway. razz

Jude (the main character ) hardly has many friends in the first place, so why screw her only close girl- friend over. Her friend designs really cute clothes and Jude gets passes for stuff and does things that need dresses , so like Beyonce does get someone you know to design your clothes. Then her friend can enjoy it too when she sees her dress on tv and people are like " who are you wearing" she can be like "my best friend Caseys". But of course it can't be that simple. Whatever Jude has Casey can never amount up to. Jude alway gets what she wants and her friend has to work twice as hard to get what she wants. When say Jude goes to a premier she should bring her best friend as a date. Jude seems to take her friendship with Casey for granted like its always going to be there an she can always count on her. But whats th point when you aren't loyal to your friend and you leave them hanging for 3 hours outside and all you come back with is a half of a sandwich. Just as her career she needs to nurture her friendship with her best friend(s). If later on Jude asks her older sister what do do or her mom or guy friend what to do. Shes in like high school so you would think she would know that.

I also think they could add onto parts about how she deals with school alone than have one about balancing everything (friends school family) they don't really show that. Her parents also don't seem to be concern about her and school.

Off topic, like I said in the last post about paying the one guy back his money. I have to contact the hot guy. I usually text message him well call him "hot guy". I think I might actually call him . Hopefully I won;t be a pain or anything. I have no idea when he works or anything that goes on with him, so hopefully I don't be interrupting anything. hes so nice it makes you want ot puke. He was doing homework once and I called him about the same kind of crap but he didn't say till later that he was doing homework (his school is hard). Ill just ask him first to make sure hes not in the middle of stuff. If I can get a short conversation with him that would be great ( I talk about myself to much so yah ). If I want to get to know him and him to get to know me I need to stop talking to him the easy way out. A real conversation would be nice.