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heh, so here's the deal. I want to be more goth. No, I know I'll never be hard core enough to be goth, and I don't plan on modeling myself after the goth label or whatever. All I'm saying is, I think goth-boots are awesome. And I really want to own a pair. But I have nothing to wear them with, and honestly I wouldn't mind making my wardrobe more goth in general. Or rather... most people who aren't goth would think what I want to look like is goth. People who are goth, would think I'm a pathetic loser for claiming to be one of them. xD

Anyway, I've drawn some fantasy sketches of what I mean by "goth" if my clothes looked how I want them to look:






please note, this isn't all of what I'd like to look like, this is just some of the more specific looks I'd want to have from time to time. Mostly, the only change would be I'd wear more sweatshirts, dye some things black, and generally have less color concerning me. I also wanna wear more 'goth' accessories, and eye liner.

... but I'm really afraid of changing. Like if I change how I look so much, maybe people will notice me and I'll be less invisible.

So tell me. Should I make the change? I need help coming out about being mildly goth at heart. D:

EDIT:
alright, so some of the things I'd want to buy....


I think a collar would be nice to have, but I have no idea what shops would sell it (I even resorted to hot topic! D: ) and I didn't find anything like what I was imagining on google images. >x<;;

random side note: GOTHIC LOLITA CLOTHES ARE REALLY COOL. Even if I could get my hands on it, I wouldn't have the guts to wear it, though. D:


these eye patch things exist?? surprised
I want one of those! <//3
I'd also wear more black jeans.
... so as you can see, goths, I wouldn't really be goth. And as you can see, people who know me, it'd be a big change. D:
HALP!