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Yes, well, I just have an extreme need to rant. I finally realize what's wrong with me. I finally know why it is that my life is so horrible. My problem is that I care too much. I sacrifice my life for just about everything, and all I get is it thrown back in my face. As much as I love my friends, all that happens is they end up hating me and wanting nothing but to be away from me. And so now I see it. I see how much better off I am alone and away from the world. That way I can't be hurt any more than I have, and I don't ruin anyone's life.

And yes, I'm crying as I type this. It's just what I do. It's hard for me to accept this, as it only proves what I've already had on my mind. But a lot of things are hard for me to accept. It was hard for me to accept that the girl I love was never going to be with me and she would be happy with someone else, but I did it. It was hard to accept that I was going to a high school I hate and I can't fight it, but I did it. It was hard for me to accept that I was destined to be alone, because everyone I need always ends up abandoning me, but I did it. And dammit, I only wish it didn't have to be as hard as it is.

Okay, so I stopped crying. This is not very good, actually. Considering that tomorrow is the worst day of the year for me, my plan was to at least be as happy as possible to see if I could get through the day without being depressed and ruining anyone else's day. But, I can't do that now. Oh well. I just wish I could die already. I don't see a need to be alive anymore. After all, whoever's reading this is probably mad and fed up with me, anyway. So I'm sorry you have to read this.

Hey, something happy. Devil May Cry 4. I really want that game. But, of course, no PS3. Something else I'll never have. Stupid commercial. Just made my life worse. John Cena and Mark Henry......hate them both. Oh well. Go fatty. I hate Cena more because he's trying to take the title that belongs to Jeff Hardy. Oh, and I'm talking about wrestling.

Anywho, I think I'm done. Sorry for wasting your time.

Dark Super Sonic
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Sat Feb 16, 2008 @ 05:24am

I will seriously come over to your house and kick your a** if you don't shut up about things like this.
Jay, you have friends.
Things work themselves around eventually.
My problems are nearly the same.
Except, I rather have Shawn Micheals with the Championship Belt.
xD

Zomg Lol Wtf Pwnt
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Sun Feb 17, 2008 @ 02:43am

No, you DON'T wish you could die!
You have LOTS of reasons to be alive, and it worries me that you talk about things like that, and you know it! At least, i think you do. o.O
You have friends, and yes they get angry, but not at you. They probably had a bad day or something.

Okay, I'm sorry. I suck at advice. I just felt I really needed to comment. =3
You'd better stop thinking about death, or I'll come all the way from Gloucester just to slap you. D<

I wuv joo Jayden! ^.^

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