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how i feel so i dont have to keep it in right now right now i am alone with nothing with all i've ever really had i started to have something good no not just good perfect i'm 16 turning 17 on march 24th and i've met death 2 times now i've died once and was in a coma for 4 days in the icu (intensive care) but anyways the reason i was in the icu is becouse the person i did have the person i loved so much left basically i know anyone who reads this and is older will say it'll be all right you weren't in love you just though you were or some s**t like that but if that wasent love and i can be hurt more then i dont think people are worth it at all i dont want to be in love ever again and if i start to fall in love i'm leaving the person that same day i realize it and for kids thats simple adopt or just have sex with someone who also wants kids no prob right i'd love to be a daddy i almost had the chance to be one but my love at the time had a miscarriages the day after V-day so yeah that hurt more then anything i've ever been through and i dont think i can handle it again so i dont know what to do and i know no one will read this couse i dont have to many friends and how likly is it for a random person to either care or to pick this one out of all the other ones out there also so yeah

Posted by: no_ones_puppet2 Mon Feb 18, 2008 @ 11:42am

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Commented on: Sun Feb 24, 2008 @ 10:44am


	I am so sorry about your loss. I couldn't even begin to imagine what you went through and what you are still going through. I guess i'm lucky in the fact that the only person I have lost is my Grandmam but it still hurt. You never forget these people, it's impossible to, but all they want is the best for you and for you to lead your life and make a difference in the world. I hope your pain becomes easier to bare even though it will never truly go. Take care. x

Commented on: Thu Mar 13, 2008 @ 04:10am


	Hey, I care and it was my loss too. What we had was love, it just didn't work out because we both had some problems, you know. In my point of view I think what's the point of living if you can't enjoy it, so go out and love as much as you can, and yes some will hurt you, but there will be more to come. Yes I know your point of view is whats the point in loving if you'll only get hurt a 1000 times worse in the end, but as one story comes to an end another one begins, it's up to us to choose what kind of story we want. My story is to love and to be happy and spread happiness, what do you choose?

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