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Jaz's feelings and troubles
How I felt this past week about my ex
Ok since my ex boyfriend won't be on my profile because he never is I'm going to write out the entire story about what happened because I have nothing better to do. OK. I've been going out with this guy L since my freshman year last year and he was pretty nice and he asked me out the day after Valentine's Day. We went out for three months until my mom raided my phone and found out we were dating and then all heck broke loose. During that time we never held hands, we kissed on the cheek during the last two weeks, we hung out at lunch but people couldn't tell we were together, and i went with him after school sometimes to his house where we basically goofed off and did nothing. During those times after school he got so boring that I eventually started laving his house to go to his friends' houses. Somehow after all that I still loved him. But when my mom talked to him and asked him to leave me alone (weeeeelllllll more like threatened) he broke up with me and of course I was pissed and cried during fourth period, but somehow still went with him to his house after school cause i loved his new puppy.

After that we stayed apart for the rest of the year and the last day of school this guy my cousin knew asked me out but he was 19 and we barely knew each other so it lasted about two weeks. After that I had to go to summer school where I started dating my friend S who wanted to date me for months. That lasted two weeks. He wanted IT and I wasn't ready for that so another one down. From there I started to withdraw to gaia and that's how I got into this website. It was when I got on here that I found out that my ex L had been dating some chick named M so i was pissed as one could assume but he was pissed about S so I guess we were even. But apparently she was an online girlfriend so after a while the long distance phone calls got hairy and one day he made the mistake of leaving her a voice mail on the house phone. BOY WAS SHE PISSED. She ended it with him and he came back to me because my friend T told him that I still liked him so he asked me out again and stupid me said yes.

We talked on the phone and messaged back and forth until school started then when we got back it was basically the same routine until I couldn't see him after school cause i switched houses to my dad's. Then after about the fifth month of just kissing on the cheek and occasional lips we finally made out! But was he a good kisser? No. Oh well. Anyway finally he started holding my hand at school and he would hug me during lunch. When I checked my mail online he would always have such sweet things to say they could melt a snowman's heart. I guess I was more in love with the thought of him than I was with him and I figured this out in about december during our 7th month together. He was at least nice enough to give me a ring 3 sizes too big for our 6 month anniversary though.

Around the 6th month he started acting seriously emo and this really pissed me off because I felt like there was nothing I could do to make it better. He brooded, complained, whined, and pitied himself so much that I just got more annoyed as time went on. I kicked myself in the butt for not breaking up with him and going out with this one really hot guy I met who I call Rooster who had an eight pack and was seriously tall, dark, handsome, and FIIIINE! Instead I gave him up to my best friend Y who dated him twice and it turned out to be a total wreck and the whole time he still likes me O.o I just felt so bad about breaking up with him even though my friends all lectured me multiple time that i should. We were all wrong as a couple.

Eventually I stopped thinking about my conceited boyfriend and started looking around me and who did I see? We'll call her bun. Well bun was L's best friends ex girlfriend who was one grade below us. She started going back out with his best friend N again this year and when I noticed her I noticed something else, L liked her! He also liked my friends: M and D and bun's best friend R. The little flirt flirted with all of em and a couple of em confronted me and told me even though I wasn't blind because they're my friends too and they were looking out for me.

Oh this was the beginning of the end. At this point I still felt bad breaking up with L so I went fishing for any reason to make him break up with me or for him to make an agreement to mutually break up. Well I had so much bad luck with that I finally gave up and then ... bun broke up with N! He was pissed! Of course this was my lucky break because it was then that bun asked L out even though L was her ex's best friend. (Does anyone besides me think that's wrong?) Anyway L apparently felt bad for me. Me? wth?! I don't need some user's pity thank you!!!! So I waited to find out what both sides were so I could solve the whole thing calmy and be free! But before I did I talked to N bun's ex. I've known him since 2nd grade and I love him to death he has always been there when I needed him. We had been talking for a couple days and one day I was B***hing about L and bun when he told me that He liked me since last year! Really?! Hallellujiah! I had liked him back when we were kids as a puppy love crush until I transferred schools for three years and i was so happy to have him back in high school.

In freshman year I had gotten a crush on him again and it lasted alll the way until this year even though I had been dating his best friend L who had apparently asked me out before N could. Just my luck right? Well I still liked him so I told him and we decided that we wanted to get together after I broke up with L so last Saturday L called me and he was depressed because he couldn't choose between me and bun so we called bun to ask her side of it and we found out that the only one they were worried about was N because they didn't want to lose him as a friend and they didn't want him to be mad (of course all worry about me caring flew out the window).

So we called N and he said the same thing that I said which was we didn't care if L and bun dated (after all they deserved each other) so we all mutually broke up. That night L called bun and asked her out and N asked me out. Total switcheroo right? I guess we're real swingers! But i really am happy now with N.

Go figure that the next day L goes to bun's house for her birthday and makes out with her on the first day! I didn't see that coming! N and I made out the first time we saw each other the other day. But I guess alls well that ends well because me and N are so alike and L and bun are so alike so everyone's happy and I'm no longer suffering! Yay freedom! heart blaugh mrgreen 4laugh cool whee blaugh heart





 
 
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