Well my friends its been nice being on gaia for a while but things must come to a close. I am giving it a break I won't be on as much and I don't know when I'll come back online again. I might come on short periods of time to check mail do the daily chance but after that I'll log back off...
Many events torn me today more then I ever hoped. I lost someone's trust, I was told I am quite a bothersome, I felt ignored, I felt alone, and lost a wonderful dear friend of mine who I understand their reason.
I wish the friend I lost today well and hope they will not forget me as I will never forget them.
These feelings been thrown at me all through out the day and its quite too much to bare for me. I feel as if I will crack or snap on someone I care about so for a while I will be gone...
This is some lyerics from Evergrey it best suits my feelings for now and is pointed at two people who pushed me to the limit today they lost my trust my respect and everything I had for them.
Some time has past
the winter is here
Dark memories haunt me
My vision is not clear
But my focus is crystal
Cause my wounds are bleeding still
You hurt me forever
How could I ever have thought that you would
The only two that I trusted
Why the hell should I forgive
You left me to winter
And god damn this loneliness
My sadness you´ll see
This sorrow ends in victory
My trust your betrayal
I stab away my sorrows
It all ends here my sight now clear
A new day begins tomorrow
A brighter season is here
The sun chases away the cold
But it hasn´t got the strength to scatter
The clouds inside of me
Have they been building forever
And now to thick to cut through
What did I do to deserve this punishment
And why am I the only one who´s forsaken
Made you rest made you sleep eternal
But this empty soul is mine
All my tears
All this sorrow
All ended in defeat
My trust your betrayal
I stab away my sorrows
It all ends here my sight now clear
A new day begins tomorrow
We are gathered here together
To decide over the hearing
Of a most evil and an unpleasant crime
Perpetrated by an evil and unpleasant mind
Someone who would even kill his best friend
For reasons of personal greed and ambition
The defendant is accused of
cold-bloodedly parting
the murder of his best friend
This is how I feel right now the ones who I pointed this to know who they are.
Nothing will change the events that happened today nothing will take back the words that have been said nor the pain that was given. I only wish it wouldn't have happened so fast like a hidden blade thrust into my back I never would have expected any of this. But my blood has already dyed up on the floor nothing more can be done.
Good bye all I hope everyone well and I do hope someday soon I will come back on and be my normal goofy self...
 DarknessSage13 · Sat Mar 01, 2008 @ 10:35pm · 0 Comments |
