Okay well I don't know if anyone reads this or even check my profile anymore I am quite sorry everyone but I bet everyone has noticed I ran away from this account.
I have been doing a lot other then Gaia but I have made another account since I have made this one mostly dead. Its the fact I had many conflicts with people and some more then others. I noticed I been heading down the wrong road a lot being used, having horrible relationships and friends or people who matter to me end up looking right through me.Quite a few friends on Gaia has turned my experience of Gaia into a drama nightmare. So far they have continued to think they are the victims a lot as they express their anger and sadness towards others even to those who try and help them it never seems to be enough.
One day I wish someone can explain to me and tell me what did I do wrong to cause these events to happen, What could I have done different to be helpful to them and at lest be noticed. Since maybe its just me but I like to be noticed when I help or be kind I don't want to be forgotten in the sands of time I mean yes people move on with their lives but why can't people keep the friends who stick by your side no matter what happens? I mean people continue to see how long that friend will stay how long they can use him or her and abuse them until they say "I give up!"
To me friends should never do that but it seems people like to test that theory, people who do that are not friends at all. But it always hurts to lose a friend that's what I think but it hurts more when you hold onto that friend and they don't even notice you which makes you sound like a idiot, loser, clingy, and just plain no one.
Eh... I really don't know why I write this or even say these things on here anymore, Whats the point? I know every time I write my words are always just mixed around never making any scene. I also don't think anyone even looks on this profile anymore well maybe some but I am not sure.
I think I am just jealous a lot feeling that I am the less important person on earth, I mean I am there to help others its just why bother when you know most will take your advice and leave.
 DarknessSage13 · Fri Jan 16, 2009 @ 04:18am · 0 Comments |
