Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

Well. I don't know what to do, but I've fallen. I'm thinking about returning to my old ways. I might go back to oregon to, shall we say, repay some one a visit, if he's still about it. I don't know anymore. I need to find away to make my pains stop, they keep getting worse and worse. I found one person who makes it go away, but I can't be around that person all the time. I've fallen. How could an Angel fall? , one might ask, but it's not that I have fallen in the sense that you might think. What I mean by I have fallen is that I've fallen in love. True Love. I know this because it's not the same kind of feelings as I'd felt with the one that had left me, but now the Gods stand beside her and watch over us all. I don't know if I should stay here because I'm afraid bad things will happen. I'm wanting something, well some one, so badly. I don't want anything to go wrong. I don't want to leave but it might be for the best, atleast for a little while. I'm thinking about finishing up a little " game " that started in Oregon and I'm thinking about ending it, hopefully he'll stop before things get out of hand. I just don't know what to do right now.
I can't leave the one I love... I also can't have her in danger. I don't know what else to do. If you any suggestions, please share them. I don't want to be a winner at a loosing game. I'm just a curse. I'm just hoping that what some one had told me is false. But what can I do? I'm losing myself to Love. Lost in Love and War. What a lovley place to be. Anyways I'm going to stop for now. Heaven is Love. Peace.

May the Gods grant you all great fortune.