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Well. I don't know what I'm going to do tonight. I'm feeling lost. Not sure what I should do. I've been hurting quite a lot lately and it keeps getting worse. Now, I'm not sure how much longer I can handle the pain. I'm not sure if my humanly body would be able to handle it much longer. I probably should go to the hospital to get checked out but we don't have that kind of money so I just have to pretend I'm ok like I'm used to doing. I don't know if I'll be able to be at school monday or the following days, depends on how badly it gets. I'd really like to be at school monday but if I'm going to be sapped down by my pain then I'd not want to be there because I wouldn't want to faint or end up "being somewhere else". I don't think I could handle having people trying to help me when no one knows how to. I don't want to go to the hospital because the last several times they said they could do nothing but give me painkillers to make it go away and that doesn't work. I've been thinking on how I could rid the pain but only few options will work. I'd hate to go about these options as well. So for now all I can do is try to hang in there. It's so hard to ask for help when you don't know how some one could help. Anyways, thats an update as for i go, but now i must go bfore im . Heaven isLove. Peace.

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