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I didn’t know what to expect when I came to camp. So far my experience in the magical world had been pretty rough and I was under the impression that it was always going to be this way. It was one of the few times in my life I was happy to be proven wrong. The only other magical my age that I knew was Sarah, who had quickly become my best friend. But she rarely practiced any magic. I had had enough experience in the world of magic and demons to know that if she was going to grow up and be happy she would have to wait to use her powers. She would not be active in the field until she was twelve, just before I left the GMT. I however had no such luxury.
I didn’t expect to have fun. Magical and training had always been so serious for me. And after all I didn’t go there to have fun; I went to camp in order to find a way to kill my brother. I definitely didn’t expect to make friends. But I did. I had a lot of fun and made the best friends ever. I loved being in a purely magical environment, which was something that I had never experienced before. Even GMT had mortals around. I’d never met people who had grown up in the magical world and never been around mortals. It was at camp that I first met other magicals my age, before any team I found myself on throughout the years. This was also when I first learned that I would not an average magical. I didn’t know that I was a prodigy until my friend there told me. And the people at camp were my first real friends, which I made at the shamefully late age of nine.
The last thing I expected to find at camp was someone that I could truly depend on. I didn’t expect to meet my best friend and someone who was going to actually stay with me through everything, through all of the horrible things that happened in my life despite how hard and stupidly I would try to push them away; someone who would influence me every single moment after the one when I met them. Someone who was going to carry me through the dark times where I felt lost and alone and so scared. I didn’t expect to me you, Duke. But I am eternally glad that I did.
For if I had not met you, Duke, I definitely would have died many years ago instead of this year. I don’t think that I ever told you and I really wish I had but it’s too late now. It’s too late for so many things. But I have this one last chance to tell you how feel, to tell you how much you mean to me and if there’s one thing that I’m going to do in my last days, I’m going to take that chance and tell you. Duke, sometimes the mere thought of getting to see you each summer stopped me from doing some very stupid things, well not every stupid thing that popped into my head but enough to make a difference. And when I am around you I always feel braver, stronger and an all around better person. When I am not around you I always felt a little bit hollow inside.
You’ve seen so much more of me than anyone else has. You knew me before Richard died and after and how happy I once was and how much it shook me up. You knew me when I first became a leader and how nervous I was and how horrible I felt when I screwed it all up. You knew me when I met Leon and when I lost him. You knew me when Yang and I first shared our bodies and the first time I wasn’t the leader. You knew me when I gave up, broke down and shattered into a thousand pieces. You were the one who helped me put it all back together again. And you knew me when I lost myself completely and you helped me find my way back. And you know me now - the end result. You’ve been there since the beginning. You’ve seen me smile, laugh, cry, scream, yell. You’ve seen me loose it completely, go off on someone for no reason. You’ve seen me make mistakes and do impossible things. You’ve seen me at my best and my worst and you hung on for the whole wild ride. And you have no idea what that means to me.
You, Duke, are in my opinion my truest friend. I’ve met people throughout the years that may have come between us at some time or another but there was never any changing what you’ve meant to me. You told me once that Sarah is my best friend and you are not, and she is but Sarah is my Sarah and you are my Duke, there is no comparison. What I feel for both of you is so complicated and intense there’s not way to compare the two things. But you have been there for me always. You might not be my soul mate but you are definitely my soul kin. You are after all my Duke forever and for always and I will eternally watch over you as you watched over me all these years.
 Zegwarian310 · Sat Mar 22, 2008 @ 06:17am · 3 Comments |
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