I love the way she smells.
It's subtle enough, that you don't even notice it until you're really close, and its so sweet, and soft too.
I wish I could of got more than just a hug when I dropped her off, but it is the first time that we have actually hung out for about 8 months.
She's so kind, and just straight out amazing. I love the sound of her voice, and her smile. Whenever she laughs I can't help but look at her and smile. And when we look at each other, straight in the eyes, I can't help but feel anything but affection, then look away, because I get nervous.
She said that she doesn't want a boyfriend, and I hate that. I hate it more so that she said she was going to move away in 1 or 2 years. It makes me want to try so much harder to try to get her to like me, but not so much that it makes me look like a obsessed creep like Dilo.
We hung out for almost 4 hours, but it only felt like less than one. She rested her head on my arm for a lil bit, and that made me smile so much. I had such a great time, and it was one of the best days I had in a long time, even if all we did do was get something to eat, and watch TV. I did spend over 6 hours waiting for her to tell me to pick her up, but it was well worth it, because it made me so happy.
I honestly wish I could be more exiting, though. I feel like she gets bored of me after a few hours. I wish I could come up with ideas of what to do while we're together. Stuff that she would find exciting and fun. Something that we could do during the day, and come home, and just chill out at night.
If she could read all this, I wish I could actually tell her about how amazing she really is. She's my dream girl, and has been for so long. I want to make her life the best life she can have, without myself being used. I want her to be happy all the time, because that smile, and laugh is something I almost couldn't live without.
I have an endless amount of things I can say about her, but there are so many thoughts about her going through my head right now, that I can't even pick one. Even if I could sort them out, this would be one of the longest things I have written.
I wish she knew.
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