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Now I lost my sister... My sister pissed her entire ****** life away and I got a call from my mom around midnight to tell me about it. Apparently this girl who is my height is now 105lbs, sores on her face, messed up hair, thinks she looks good... The joys of being a meth addict I suppose. She got caught going over state lines with a meth lab in her trunk. Soooooo, taking that st over state lines makes it a federal offense and she is looking at possibly two life sentences. I might not see my Little sister for a long, long, long time. Assuming she survives detox and doesn't kill herself. So I got to hear my mother be a wreck on the phone and got to have a little breakdown of my own. I helped raise that girl til she was 12 and I left for college. I know it isn't my fault. However, I can't help the feeling that I failed her or missed some detail that I could have stopped this. I can't save her this time. I can't help her or even see her. She was arrested in another state so my mom can't see her either. ... ... So I just lost my baby sister and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it.

Posted by: DeathWyrmNexus Fri May 09, 2008 @ 07:27pm

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Commented on: Sun May 11, 2008 @ 05:10pm


	Update... I got a call from my mom. Apparently somebody posted my sister's bail and she is six hours from home. However, she was arrested in another state so she is skipping bail to come home. Also, the only ****** who she would call "friend" with that kind of money would be the seedy **** who got her into meth in the first place. So I am not holding out hope just yet but maybe my sister will be home for Mother's Day. I don't know if my mom can take any more of this st though. Her heart is pretty beaten after four heart attacks. stare

Commented on: Sun May 11, 2008 @ 11:50pm


	Oh and I hear from my mom that my sister is going to take the full fall since she doesn't wanna roll on the guys who got her into the mess. Meanwhile she called at 10am to my mom saying she would be home. A while later she said she wouldn't be home til midnight. She was only six hours away. Ergo, who knows what the ******** she will be doing with those shits until around midnight, assuming they aren't going to kill her and bury her somewhere.

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Commented on: Mon May 12, 2008 @ 01:25am


	More nonsense... Let alone that I have no idea who these guys are For all I know, they are going crime drama on her a right now and we won't find her body for weeks Even if she makes it home, she has to go back in three weeks for her trial She isn't going to roll on these guys who don't give a st about her Let alone that she has been lying left and right to my mother sigh She is a pathological liar just like her father... It is depressing So I had to tell my mom something I never thought I would have to say I told her that I won't allow my sister in my home again Lying Druggie with Gun... sigh

Commented on: Mon May 12, 2008 @ 04:50pm


	She apparently made it home at around 5pm instead of midnight. According to my mom she looks like a walking bruise. I told her once that she could tell me anything now she is afraid to call me. Something feels so hollow knowing that it is true. I know I need to call her but her phone was dead last night. I'll do it today. There is a lot I want to say and I don't want to break down again. I've done that too much already. I can't save her, I can't make this better, and I have to keep my family safe from her. Something inherently sick about that, knowing that I have to protect against her instead of protect her. Side note: I spoke with my paramedic sub, Miranda. From mom's description of my sister, Miranda's experience tells her that my sister has been on Meth for months now. stare

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Commented on: Mon May 12, 2008 @ 06:41pm


	Man... I'm so sorry about all of this Dubs Sir. I can imagine how hard this is but you're right, you have to put your family first. hugs tight

Commented on: Mon May 12, 2008 @ 09:28pm


	I'm sorry, DW. I sort of know how you feel since I lost a chunk of my family to Marijuana. gonk

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Commented on: Mon May 12, 2008 @ 09:37pm


	I hope you feel better. Remember. We're here for you. 3nodding

Commented on: Tue May 13, 2008 @ 03:33am


	I'm here for you hun. When I was little, my mom sold me for a hit and my dad had to pick me up from the police station. She died before I hit 6th grade for skipping on Dyalisis (sp?)..... And know I live with people who do that s**t just to look out for them.

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Commented on: Tue May 13, 2008 @ 04:51am


	Sir Dubs, there is always silver lining. At least now your sister has the opertunity to straighten out. It is a long and tough road. Meth... meth ******** you over. My mother is a drug and alcohol counsiler... christ on a stick I am sorry. hugs I am always here to help you Dubs. ~Blackrose

Commented on: Tue May 13, 2008 @ 04:58am


	I'm really sorry to hear about all this. I hope everything works out...I wish there was something that I could do for you.

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Commented on: Tue May 13, 2008 @ 08:34am


	Lithium: Thanks love, it means a lot. I know what I have to do but it still feels like being stabbed. huggles Chaos: I am sorry to hear about your family. I have a cousin who was some kind of crack addict last I heard from her. I just will never understand I suppose and more importantly, I don't want to understand. Thanks for the support. heart Sorrow: Hun, you've always been a darling to me so it is painful to know you were treated like that. It's just crazy to even think about... Blackrose: Thanks babe, I know there has to be some kind of silver lining since she will get help but damn... It is a very ****** thin silver lining. Nice to know that fate is a cheap bh with the silver some of the time. hugs* Matasoga: Knowing that you stopped by is awesome enough, my friend. Update: I couldn't get a hold of her on Monday. She didn't visit Mom like she was supposed to and her phone was still dead so I couldn't reach her again. Mom told me that she left a note telling Mom to tell me that she loved me. -_- These three weeks are going to suck.

Commented on: Fri May 16, 2008 @ 01:24pm


	It's inadequate to say, but I'm so sorry.

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Commented on: Sat May 17, 2008 @ 03:18am


	I am so sorry to hear that you and your family are going through so much, there isn't much any of us can do, but I hope that knowing that your gaian friends are all thinking of you and hoping that your sister stays safe will brighten your day even if by the teensiest bit. I'm going to hope hard for your family and your sister.

Commented on: Sat May 17, 2008 @ 06:08pm


	Well, I got a call at about 2:30am. I expected something bad as only my mom would call at that hour and only about something important. My sister was finally willing to talk to me. I was pissed and she hung up on me after babbling too much. I had to call back and argue with my mom before I could get her back on the phone. We talked and I dragged the truth out of her. She has apparently only been on meth for a month and a half. Her sores which were indicative of longer use are from a documented thyroid problem that she was hospitalized for recently. Of course she wasn't having it treated so it only added to the problem. God, she even sounded like a walking and depressed bruise. It took a lot to make her promise not to give up, not to die on me. I warned her that I would chase her right into hell and drag her out if she did. I hate the thought of her dying on me. I suppose the only solace to take right now is that the idiots who helped set her up in this already are busted and getting theirs. Ugh... Thanks Reverend and Vyrie, it really does mean a lot to hear from ya'll. huggles

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Commented on: Sat May 17, 2008 @ 06:17pm


	Oh, god... It won't help much to say this, but I'm so sorry. I hope things work out and come out for the best. It's great you finally got to talk to her. 3nodding

Commented on: Fri May 23, 2008 @ 10:00pm


	This just in... I might have to choke the life out of my sister before she can pay for her crimes. You see, I cosigned a car loan for her a few months back before all this s**t. Now, I am being told I owe 1,511.38... I have all sorts of exciting levels of crunchy blood flavored rage right now.

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Commented on: Mon Jun 02, 2008 @ 04:13am


	Well, I found I was misinformed so the trial isn't until the 10th and my sister didn't come to visit like she said she would. I am rather annoyed but I will live.

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