Okay, so obviously... I wasn't made out for this type of thing. All the people I seem to fall for already have someone... or just don't feel the same way. Which.... has been both recently. I fall for someone, and they already have someone, and they dont' like me back.
Well, for once in my life, I find someone I've completely fallen for... and she has someone... Not yet...but...she still has someone. Someone she has to be with no matter what. An arranged marriage. I mean... at first I was like.. you know... that's cool. I could live with it... or... at least I thought I could. I can't. It actually hurts to know I could never stand a chance with her no matter how badly we both wanted it.
She... means a lot to me. More than someone should I just met online. Well, I didn't 'just' meet her. I've known her for a few months, but... I've fallen for her. I know I have. I just... I know she cares for me... feels the same way, but we can't... we just can't.
Even though we can't be... more than friends... I'll always have feelings for her. I know that. Everything she says and does means so much... just so damn much. I couldn't let her walk away from me. Never.
 E P ii C - P H A ii L · Tue Jun 03, 2008 @ 03:15am · 0 Comments |
