Last night I was having my friends Lindsey, Amanda, and Michaela sleep at my house. My friend Kyle was there hanging out with us until he had to leave. Michaela and Lindsey ( 14 and 15 ) We're going to go to a party that my brother Mike ( 21 ) Was going to drive them too. Kyle ( My ex-boyfriend of 17 ) was going to stay with me, and Amanda ( 13 ) who he likes. She likes him as well but for some reason they don't date. Amanda was against the fact that me and my ex-boyfriend Darren had been seeing eachother but not dating but now that she was doing it there was no problem. That made me very mad so I didn't want to sit and watch them be all over eachother all night while Lindsey and Michaela got to go to a party. I asked Michaela if I could go. She said sure and that I should bring Darren. So I called him and asked and he said he was going to bring his friend Chansaly. It was now 10:00 and we didn't plan on leaving until about 10:30 because Michaela and Lindsey wanted to go smoke weed at the playground. >_>;
Lets leave them there for awhile.
My brother Mike had a baby with his ex-girlfriend Shania. Shania was living at my house because she got kicked out of her house and her mother took the baby from her because she goes out everynight and gets drunk and stoned. My brother wasn't having problems at all. Shania had been there for about two weeks. While the girls are at the playground my brother comes outside with a plastic bag which I found out later was Shania's clothes. He put them in her trunk and began to drive away. She ran outside yelling at him to get out of her car. He got out and threw the bag of her clothes at her. He said "Get out of my house you slut! I don't want you here."
Darren calls my cell phone and asks me where Michaela is because she was suppose to call him when we were ready to leave. I say I think she's at the playground. So me and Amanda walk down to the end of my driveway to see if we can see them walking up the street. I get ready to tell Darren I don't see them when all of a sudden I hear my mom screaming. "What are you doing!? Are you a ******** psyco!?" Then I hear my brother yell something. Then I hear Shania yell. Then I hear my mom again. Then I hear her scream in pain and then say "What are you doing with my furniature!?" Then I hear a mirror or some kind of glass smash. I call Darren and ask him if me and Amanda and Kyle can go to his house because I don't want anyone here. As we walk back up our driveway I run past my brother and ask him what the ******** is wrong with him and he pushes Amanda out of the way into Shania's car. I run inside and Shania is crying in the bathroom, The mirror in my dining room is smashed to peices on the ground, One of the wooden bars on my mom's 1,500 dollar dining room set is broken and peices of the china cabenet are thrown on the floor.
Darren didn't answer the first time so I call him again. He answers and I ask him if we can go there. He says sure. I tell Amanda and Kyle to follow me and I start running to Darren's house. I want to get as far away from anyone as possible besides him, He makes me feel like nothing is wrong.
Kyle calls my cell phone and says that Darren just pulled in front of my house in Chansaly's car. So I run back to my house and Darren is walking outside with my mom. My mom is complaining about her leg so I asked Darren what happened. He says he dosen't know but I know he knows. He tells me to get in Chansaly's car and we can still go to the party to get away. He tells Kyle and Amanda to get in but they say they would rather walk. We go to the playground where Michalea and Lindsey are. These two other people Alan and Courtney are there. Everyone is asking me a bunch of questions that I don't know the answers to so I just run away to go sit on these steps over near the school. I hear Amanda run up to me but my eyes are so blurry with tears that I can't see her. The only way I know it's her is because I know how her etnies sound when she runs. After a little while she goes over to talk to Michaela. I'm still crying. Darren walks over to me and starts to stoke my hair. The only way I know it's him is because I know what his hands are like. After a minute or two I can't stand just sitting there alone anymore so I grab him and start crying in his shirt. He sits down next to me and puts his arm around me. He says "Everything is gonna be allright..Trust me Okay? It's not the worst that could happen." After awhile I stop crying and I get into Chansaly's car again. Somewhere along the lines Amanda and Michaela had a fight so Amanda and Kyle walked off somewhere on their own and Alan and Courtney left in Alan's truck.
We try to find this party but Michaela can't remember where it is so we just drive around aimlessly for about an hour. Around 11:45 Darren gets a call from his dad. It's his mom's birthday in 15 minutes and he invites us all over to celebrate. We go to taco bell first to get some food and then over to Darren's house. 12:00 comes and we celebrate his mom's 50th birthday for 15 minutes and then we go inside. I don't want to sleep home tonight. I try to get the courage to ask Darren if I can sleep there but I can't do it so we leave to drop us all off. Lindsey and Michaela sleep at Lindsey's house. I havn't done anything but get in a whole mess of trouble until we started hanging out with Lindsey recently so I told her that and Michalea thought I was talking to her so she got mad at me. Darren walked me inside my house and I finally got the courage to ask if I could sleep there. He says he has to get up early for practice and he knows if I sleep home I'll appreciate my own bed in the morning. He says he'll be online if I need anything. Once he leaves I shut myself in my room and try to drown out the yelling. He finally come online. We talk for a little while and he gives me that usualy attitude he gives me when he's tired and annyoyed. He says he wants me to stay home and not go anywhere. So I do. Amanda calls me and her and Kyle want to come over and talk to me so we talk for a bit and then Kyle goes home and Amanda sleeps over.
I wake up this morning to find Amanda on the phone with who else but Kyle and then her telling him that she's in trouble because someone called her house looking for her this morning knowing that she was at my house. She tells Kyle that she dosn't want to hang out with Lindsey and Michaela anymore because all they do is bring trouble. Then of course they call her and Lindsey says she wants to talk to Amanda so Amanda tells them to come over. Like she can just invite people to my house without my saying it's okay first. Michaela says she has to tell Amanda something and it's not about her or Lindsey so of course that just leave me. I say "If you have something to say about me say it to me or get the ******** out of my house." So all of them leave. I didn't want all of them to. Just Michaela and Lindsey. I have no problem with Amanda.
So I don't really know whats going on. I have work today at 4 and Kyle is my ride but he only hangs out with Amanda so my guess is he'll be with them and I'll have to walk. I'm begining to think my dreams of going back out with Darren are fadeing slowly but surely. It just seems like he's never there anymore. I have no clue whats going on and I wish I knew what to do. I guess some people like me just get whats coming to them.
 `Cyanide · Fri Aug 19, 2005 @ 03:19pm · 3 Comments |
