i've never had a decent relation ship.... ever..
.. my first one was with a good friend of mine... due to my mistakes and nervousness that i'd ******** up big time.... i ******** up big time not ever making move because i feared i'd ******** up and she'd call me a jerk and slap me, or call me a perv and slap me then kick me in the huevos (which i really don't need anymore of),... or laugh at my attempts and dump me because i was pathetic... and thats what i feared... so i didn't make a move... and because of that i was dumped (and as you read before i did ******** up!!)....
... so that was the first one... (i'm not sayin names because you people don't need to know...)
...the second one asked me out as well... then dumped me five days later... because i wasn't emo enough.... (I'M NOT EVEN EMO! WHAT THE CRAP?!) so that was number two...
...which is really sad.... maybe it's me... maybe i'm the nervous wreck who fears being alone for the rest of his ******** life.... like those guys who are old and retired and have 50,000 cats.... (the one thing i always ended up fearing i would become)....
... and i think i will take a break from writing... whenever i get an idea i'll write it down in my journal or somethin.... (not this journal... dumbass idea stealers) so yeah...
a review... i'm alone... my love life suck a**... and my head hurts from all the ideas...
THE END....
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... i've always wanted to do the scary movie ending thing...
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