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The Romeo Complex. They say you have a Romeo Complex when you feel a need to be emotionally attached to someone. When you know someone, and are very close to them, you may trick yourself into loving them. Not because you love them. But because you love the feeling of being in love.

I made this subconscious mistake almost a year ago, and it's made my life hell. I had a very close friend, one of whom I could talk to, and I had recently broken up with someone. After our group of friends had a cataclysmic falling out, we tended to break off into small groups. Since me and her had already been good friends, not to mention we had several other things in common (eg: our sexualities and religions) we stuck together. We got really close, and it seemed that I liked her. I talked to her about it, and, as she says, she liked me too.

But I didn't realize I "liked her" until she brought it up. So, the question stands;
Did I "fall in love" with her because I really loved her? Or because I subconsciously wanted to fall in love with her?

And on that note, since she's left me, I've been very confused. Sometimes I feel like I hate her, and others I fell like I'm more in love with her than ever. And I always feel as though I'll never love again. But after a long conversation with my English teacher, I have to think; Do I actually still love her? Or do I have a Romeo Complex?

Have I grown so attached to her that I need her in my life? Or just another person? Do I need that brat, or will any brat do? I know my type, and it's the exact opposite of me. And I still wonder; Do I need her to love me? Or do I just need someone who will put up with me like she did, but for much, much longer.

These are some questions many of you may want to ask yourselves when you go through a harsh break-up. Do I still love her/him? Can I move on? And most important: Did I actually ever love her/him at all?

Well, goodnight everyone. This has been Sasori L Cox with this months Deep and Insightful Thoughts on What Has Happened to Him, and What He's Trying to Keep You From Going Through.