I've sat in darkness crying untill I can can cry no more.. Although my love isn't here anymore.. I lay awake, for days on end, in fear of the nightmares that reality may bend.. I admit muy father is an arrogant a*****e, who at times, I want to kill.. The only thing stopping me is the fact he played a major role in my birth.. Desides my mother.. I've often thought of what this world would be with out me here.. After all, most of my family has told me to kill myself and do the world a favor.. Yes, I have acted on these, but never succeded.. I've often let my mind stray from the reality of the world slowly comming to an end.. I also admit, I do like the taste of blood.. If it makes me a freak oh well.. I am what I am, love me or hate me, I really don't care anymore.. I hate my life, want to slit on part and see what people would say.. Although I can't bring my self to do it.. I live in darkness, always numb.. The only thing I feel anymore is pain.. Growing up I was always a little ball of sunshine to my mother and father.. Well, I'm not that "Sunshine" they once knew.. I'm not daddies ******** little girl anymore!!Honestly there are some people in this world I could hunt thm down in the middle of the night, hang them by there hair, slit their throats, watching the warm crimson liquid inside them trickle to their toes.. Laughing as they gasped for their life, trying to grasp anything they could, as they lay, gaging in their own blood.. I would make sure that I was the last thing they ever saw, the blade in my hand, and their blood on my lips.. Unfortunetly.. I can't, and restrain my self, to the best of my abilty.. My life with him has been a living hell for the past fourteen years.. Although his side of the family isn't any better, they try and convert me to good christian girl.. HAHA!
Well daddy dearest I have a few words for you "******** YOU TO HELL AND BACK YOU ARROGANT b*****d!!" I'm a really nice person if you don't piss me off..
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