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how do i feel?
i feel nothing anymore
i am numb
my heart hurts when the numbness goes
when i am feeling this numbness i dont feel the pain
you ask me how i feel.
im telling how i really feel.
why do you keep asking?
i dont feel sadness
or anger
i dont feel happiness
or joy
i dont feel envy
or greed
i dont feel at all.
i feel like there is a hole where my heart was
thats going to suck me in
thats going to implode
i let the numbess engolf me so i dont feel the pain of it all.
this is how i feel......