I don't think things with Bryderick will continue any longer.
Because...
Well,
We've been talking this past two weeks,
And we've been passing notes,
And talking on Myspace,
And everything.
I was thinking everything was going to be awesome,
But then today happened.
I gave him a note, asking him a few questions about his PDA policies and such,
Trying to figure him out a bit more,
And he said that he didn't have any rules,
Just as long as it wasn't too much, too soon,
Or the likes.
I was like 'That's cool. I'm the same!'
But,
He gave me another note,
This one saying that he didn't like PDA,
And how he didn't want people staring,
And he didn't want everyone to know about him and who he dates.
I..
I was crushed.
Back when Clarence and I dated,
He was in the same phase.
He was iffy on showing any kind of signs to the public of how he felt about me,
And, no matter how much he may have wanted to,
He wouldn't even come over to say hello.
Bryderick is the same.
He's fine with sitting next to each other,
But that's it.
No holding hands or anything close to it,
No sneaking somewhere slightly secluded and maybe stealing a kiss,
No nothing.
If we do start dating,
He'll probably be asked about it from his parents,
They'll make him break up with me,
We'll still be "talking" and crap,
But not official,
And he'll take some time to figure himself out,
And I'll feel lonlier than s**t,
And if I'm lucky, he'll pull the same trick Clarence did,
And "test" our relationship.
I'll fail it,
And we'll break up,
Him learning about himself, and moving on,
While I'm left in the dust.
I can't do this.
I can't put myself through the same thing again.
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