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frankincense.
i've kind of talked about kylea a lot tonight, lmfao.
but only because she crosses the topics.

one more thing:
Ryr byccy lhitihi lni uy cue doddewue eddheddy e miu.
Boen.
Ryr sui byccy cu lhitihi.
CYRY COBBYCDY BIH YTUEHME.
Khhhkghgk.
My ayofocdcyortitlodiert. i. i.
...
; ;
Zyddi my ayooo.
Ny wymody hulnuesehi xoecu it um tuclyhcy.
Emsycddd.
M'ekmte; k; um tk.
TTT;

M'esy doddewue?

have a good day...


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well.
that's it.
:/

i'm leaving the class.
over ONE HUNDRED questions in one night?
******** that. :/
seriously.
******** that.

and i hate saying that i can't do this.
i hate being the type to give up.
but i'm going to have to, for the best of my gpa.
i need that 4.0+ gpa.
and this,
this is just killing it.
i'm better off out of this class.
this is for the best.
hell, i'll be happier, too.
i just need to remember that that class was supposed to train me.
giving up right now is technically running away. and i can't sugarcoat or justify that any better than i already have.
i need to remember that running away isn't the answer.
i need to remember that i still need to push and prioritize.

hopefully this won't hurt me in the long run. hopefully.
i'll remember what i'm risking here tonight.


- -


i had better have all ap classes next year.
they're so much easier than honors classes.
at least i have two this year.
that's pretty good for a sophomore, here.
most everyone else has one.


OH OH.
I REMEMBER NOW.
BECCA ISN'T A VIRGIN ANYMORE.
LMFAO.
oh man oh man.
i was the first person she toldddddd. biggrin
SHE WOKE ME UP AT 8AM TO TELL ME.
haaaa, i love her. biggrin
and i so love her and auggie.
they are just
so destined to be together. i swear to ******** god.
and i can only say that about them two.
and almost kylea and david, and that one couple i've always seen for the past three years.
but i don't know the latter so much.
but becca and auggie,
they are just,
******** amazing.
it's what,
two, three years?
mannnn. (:
and i just love auggie, lmfao.
he buys me cigs and sex toys. HAHA.
and he's just so chill. we click.
see, that's what i dig about guys. they have that kind of childish perverted humor.
he's cool. (:
and deep, too.
ahhh, i'm so proud of becca. (:
she's so happy this year. and it makes me happy that she's happy, too. truly.


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A show of hands, who has said these words before? With a show of hearts on the floor, who has ever meant them more? Well, I'll swallow my pride if you'll stay for the years, and watch me spin circles as I disappear. Hearts, they don't lie, they just quiver in fear as you say, "Tonight we forget everything and stay the night." If I was wrong, then I'm sorry and I'll stop this fight for the night. And this empty space left in the seat to my right where you should be says a lot, don't let it say goodbye. And today I know that tomorrow is going to shine golden and bring our hearts back home. And today meant nothing, because you're gone, and I swear that this meant everything to me, because my heart's not home.


i don't really mean the last part.
just the part about the fights.
i can relate to it.
with the pride, and everything.
'cause i'm an egotistical ********, sometimes.
but really, it's just a pretty song. (:


- -


i caved.
mayday parade is one of my favorite bands, now.
i don't care if i hate 80% of their tracks.
cheers, anchor, IYWASWAY, miserable, IHTBY, pfftsht. amazing.

i kind of have never come across a band like that, though.
i ADOREEE 6 or 7 of their songs,
and trash the rest.
at least,
not all of their songs are copies of each other.
:D



- -


i don't even know.
lmfao.
i don't careee.

remember what becca said?
what becca said.
i'm hanging my life on what becca said.
those words are exactly what i need to follow.
and it's made everything so much easier, truly.

sorry.
this is what's happened.


- -


OH OKAY.
so,
liking brokencyde and choppy layered hair,
wearing skinny jeans and flashy colors,
having toilet humor and high self-esteem,
must make me a "scene kid."
because I SO TRY TO FIT INTO THE LABELS.
I WANT TO BE A CUT-OUT.

no.
:/

i'm rachelle.
there's more to me than things you can tie into stereotypes.

man.
such hate on the e-web, man.
probably a troll,
but whatever.

it's not even that i care about what they say all that much.
nobody's going to come to the thread now, because it's all ******** up.

meh. oh well.
i have my best friend to deal with, right now. which i'm feeling edgy about.
and kind of scared/bothered.


- -



new swagg:

black plug earrings with nautical stars.
dance gavin dance tee.
yellow and black rubber bracelets to go with the dgd tee.
yellow and black smiley face pin. (:
blink-182, misfits, and ramones pin.
almosttt got plaid skinny pants.
cobra starship tee.
monster belt.

they even had a 3OH!3 shirt already.
i seriously squealed in the store right there.
pretty surprising. biggrin

the cashier was having problems with the computer.
because it broke down.
and the line got REALLY LONG.
so some of the customers got upset. sort of. i didn't really care, though.
when it started up again,
she gave us 30% discount cards, lmfao.
haaa. biggrin
talk about coming to the right place at the right time.
s**t like that is normally backwards.





we've been talking about religion and death.
i don't like it.



- -



...oh.
hahaha.
oh.
:c

heh.
uh.
hmm. :c

rachelle made a no no.
ehh. :/
i'm sorry.
eh,
i ******** up.
i'm sorry. D:
and,
my excuse is terrible, haa.
heh. :/

this one's my fault.


- - -


you ******** up so bad sometimes, man.
and i just want to run up to you and talk it out like a b***h.
but then the next day i see you,
and i just totally forget.
i'm not one for cold shoulders.

- -


There I was, standing there in the church,
and for the first time in my whole life I realized I totally and utterly loved one person.
And it wasn't the person next to me in the veil.
It's the person standing opposite me now in the rain.


eeep. (:

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oh my god.
oh my gah oh my gah ohmygoagha.

i am
joining ap mag's street teammmmm.
dkgjkldsjgksdh.
AND THEN APPLYING FOR AN INTERNSHIP.
OH MY GOD.
that's.
that's just.
that's my dream ******** come true.

oh my god.
oh my god.
and I KNOW they'll sign me up. because i got the credentials, man. ********' good background/grades/reps.
oh, man.
ohhhh mannn.

this is so like.
my dream ******** come true.
oh my god.
OH MY GOD.

heeeeeeee. (:

and i'd love to join karmaloop's street team.
but they're less,
musical.
but still totally my thing.
but.
my passion is MUSIC.
not musically influenced apparel/culture.

just just.
ahhasjkadg.


IM SO EXCITED.
IM SO EXCITED.
i didn't even know you could DO THIS.
THAT'S AMAZING.

thisisamazingthisisamazing.

oh my god.
get the ******** calmer drugs mann,
im way too ******** excited.

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JOY TO THE ******** WORLD.
I DID IT.
I DID IT ALL.
I DID IT ALLLLL.

oh, ******** yes.
that's what rachelle does ******** best, cuh.
oh, man.
oh, oh man.
the work of three,
an entire two-month project,
finished to absolute completion.
all done nearly entirely me.

i don't even care if i should have had more help with that.
i did it.
i did it all.
i'm so proud.
god,
i felt like giving up so bad.
so bad.

i did it.
i did this.
mmm.

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SO I DON'T SEE WHY THAT WOULD BE BOTHERSOME AT ALL.

... |:

******** you.
seriously.
lmfaooo. :/
in fact,
i take back what i said. (:
i DO mean it personally.
as personal as personal can ******** get.
haaaa. :/

- -


ahahaha.
i know,
i know.
i'm amazin'. (:

just ask me how i sleep at night.





 
 
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