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Nick
My life sucks.I am alone,no one understads me,im hopeles,and im hated by many people.I dont know why im here right now.many people hate me.I cant please anyone.I look at everyone and see how happy and glad they are it just makes me mad.Well not mad but somtimes i think that they dont know whats happing in this hated world.Theres lots of lives like mine.But each of them have one thing or more diffrent.Why do I have to live like this?Why are just some lives like this?Why cant anyone anwers me?I wish somone could understad me.I stay in the dark because no ones there,no one could harm me.Its like im the only one here in this world.I like being alone,but somtimes I wish there was somone like me right there beside me.But there isnt.I dont show these feelings everyday.My mom calls me mastake but I dont like that nickname.Somtimes I may look happy on the outside but most of the time my hreat is bleeding with madness and sadness on the inside.So never juge me on the way i look.But still many people do.I get in ALOT of fights everyday.I get mad easaly.I have anger poblums.Thats one of the reasons why I get in alot of fights.But I dont give a dam about what people say to me.Who the hell cares if they make fun of me or call me names.Because i sure dont.So go ahead call me names,hit me as hard as you can,I dont care.But hit one of my friends or somone i care about than yeah im going to stand up for them any chacee i get.Hit me once im just going to be looking at a loser.But hit me a second time and yeah im going to fight back.Im not going to be fighting back because you hit me,im going to be fighting back because im going to give you what you want,somthing to make other people scared of you.I dont care if you call me emo,goth,punk whatever.Not all emos and goths hurt themselfs.They only do that because s**t happend in there lifes.You dont just wake up and deside to be emo or goth or whatever.And its not just some trend people fallow.Things happend in there lives.I had five friends go by suiside.Oh because there emo whatever they went like that becuase ALOT of things happend to them.I do miss them.Alot.I wish they were still here with me.But there not going to be.I dont have a problum with emos and goths and punks and whatever but i do have a problum with the people saying that emos and goths and everything els are bad and there going to try to change them.So what we have persings and hair in our faces and we were black so?Im not saying im emo or goth and im not saying im not.So yeah good pick on the emos and goths punks and who ever els thats just saying your one of those people who likes picking on the little people.So think again when your about to do somthing dumb like that.