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For those who don't know, this is a mule account. My main account is on a 14 day ban.

Anyway right now it seems like s**t is just piling up all at once.

I was raised by my grandparents, and almost a year ago my grandmother died. It really bothers me alot for personal reasons.

I've been having issues with my uncle. I've been going to his house on random weekends for a couple years now. They're accusing me of stealing from their house. They claim every time I leave something is either broken or missing. I may be a jerk, but I'm not a thief. The problem is that I have no proof that I haven't done anything. My uncle said it's still cool for me to go over, but I don't think I will.

Apparently my aunt is in the hospital. My whole life she has lived alone out in the middle of nowhere, but for the last several months she's had to live in a retirement home. Now she's in the hospital with pneumonia. She is the above mentioned uncles ex wife, but even though they divorced she has been very close to the family.

My self esteem is through the floor. My grandpa and sister "congratulate" me for good grades, but I see no point in taking pride in it since I should have graduated by now. If I was a "decent person" I would be in college or fighting a war or some s**t. All in all I am just a worthless pile of s**t, but at least I know it. I'm not one of those pricks that blames things around them. It's my fault I am worthless and that's all there is to it. At least I'm honest about it. With all my bad qualities at least I can be honest with myself. It doesn't make me a better person though.

I'm pretty pissed with the world around me though. People in general just piss me off. There are a few notable people in my life, but for the most part humanity can go to hell.