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I don't know what the hell im doing. I seriously don't. I fell for this amazing girl that's perfect for me. You're thinking, must be great. Well, wrong! She doesn't feel the same way I feel about her.

We are currently together, but who knows how long that will last? We were happy until last week when she blew up on me for not giving her space. But I just want to be close to her...

Things have been rocky between us. We've broken up and gotten back together a grand total of three times! After the last time (which was last night) I decided to try and give space to think. BUT IT HURTS!! Today I came to the conclusion that she must not really care for me. Her loser pot-smoking friends come before me. I just feel so alone...

Tonight, I won't call her. If anything, I am a man of my word, and I will give her the space that she needs. But I'm not happy about it. I just hope this storm of hurt feelings and backwards emotions ends soon.

With any luck, I won't post in this again for a very long time. BTW: to my awesome friends that have been supporting me throught this whole mess, thank you. I REALLY don't deserve you.

Yours Sadly,
Phoenix