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The plan was to let me down gently, I know. The game was to make it temporary. But be careful what you wish for 'cause you might get that and so much more. I may shed a tear without you here, but I will give you space.

The days have been going by fast for me. I just watch movies and sleep. Life is useless when there is no1 to live for.

Luckily I have my friends. 2 of my friends have been texting me like crazy. Now usually I find that highly annoying, but now, I don't feel so alone.

I am guessing that my ma told my dad Caitlyn broke up with me because he's been extra nice and urging me to go out and have some fun with my friends.

Really? All I wanna do is sit and rot.

Earlier I was feeling like s**t, but my dad forced my ma and I to go on a walk with him. We went pretty far and checked out the Christmas lights. Actually, we just got back. We went to a park which I haven't gone to since before it was remolded, which was many years ago. I brought Bloo and made her go down the ultra cool slide. She ********' hates slides!

While outside I felt at peace. Nothing bad was on my mind. For once, I felt free. I guess I should go out more often. I mean, I walk all the time, but to go outside and have some fun!

Yesterday when Samantha was over, I really ******** up. When I gave her a 20 dollar bill she told me she'd buy pot with it. I stood right infront of her, and reached into her pocket. Right away I remembered my 1st kiss with Caitlyn. My heart was racing, and I had stolen her Zapdos card from her. She tried to get it back. When I turned around to give the card back, I kissed her.

I tried to shake the memory away. Out of nowhere, my heart started racing. I backed up. "Oh ********! I'm so sorry! My heart is beating really fast!"

"Whoa! It's okay. Gee, why do people freak out when they're around me?"

"I'm sorry, okay? I'm just... scared. You're straight-ish"

"Scared? I swear, every1 only wants to be with me to get in my pants."

I tried to say something to make her want to take that back, but I couldn't. After all, she was right.

I won't be here when you figure out that you got what you asked for.
You got your space. You got exactly what you asked for. I'm so gone.
You have me saying goodbye.

You had my hypnotized. But I'd love to be put back under your spell.

Yeah, I couldn't think of a title. Shut up!
Sorry.