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Its a new beginning for me, as it always is after losing something special. But as always I feel that feeling inside me, that feeling that doesn't go away. It fills me with doubt and sorrow. Doubt that I'll never get what I truly desire. Everyone says that everyone has someone but the cruel reality is that not everyone finds that person. Sometimes fate or life doesn't allow you to have what you want no matter how much you truly desire it. At least for me..it seems that I am yet again at another path of which I must travel. I lost part of my self and even though it hasn't been that long since then..I feel completely different. And with every disappointment I continue to change into a different person. I am now beginning to learn a new part of me that maybe in time will lead to a greater future..if not..then I suppose that is my destiny. Within these moments I see that there is so much more to me then meets the eye to most people. That my mind and personality is so complex its even beyond that.. After everything I have lost my friends in person, only one stands with me now but that may not even last much longer. I am alone in that area. And family well, they don't understand..or maybe they just don't want to. -sigh- I guess its time to keep moving as I always have. No matter how sad or hard it is, I have to live unless life prevents me from doing so..

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