Mecuniv (8:57:14 PM): Hey
Shadow returned at 8:57:48 PM.
Shadow (8:57:58 PM): hello
Mecuniv (8:58:08 PM): ^^
Mecuniv (8:58:27 PM): Hey, I wanted to talk to you
Shadow (8:58:32 PM): k
Mecuniv (8:59:36 PM): Hey, you know how I told you I fell in love with my friend?
Shadow (8:59:46 PM): yeah
Mecuniv (9:00:02 PM): Has that ever happened to you?
Shadow (9:00:24 PM): not that i can remember.....
Mecuniv (9:00:54 PM): Have you ever fallen in love with anyone?
Shadow (9:01:55 PM): i think i was 6....i picked a purple flower...it died...i gave it to her...i don't remember a very good out come....
Mecuniv (9:02:15 PM): That sounds like a crush...
Shadow (9:02:24 PM): true
Mecuniv (9:02:40 PM): No, I mean, love. Not just a crush
Shadow (9:04:06 PM): that was pretty much it...6 year olds don't take heart brake to well....
Mecuniv (9:04:14 PM): Aww
Mecuniv (9:04:41 PM): So, I guess you don't really know what it's like then...
Shadow (9:04:52 PM): guess not...
Mecuniv (9:05:07 PM): Okay, I was just curious.
Mecuniv (9:05:37 PM): What would you do if someone told you they loved you?
Shadow (9:05:52 PM): hmmm...
Mecuniv (9:06:39 PM): *Cocks head*
Shadow (9:06:55 PM): heh...c**k....lol...
Mecuniv (9:07:06 PM): ...
Mecuniv (9:07:33 PM): *Turns head to the side*
Shadow (9:07:46 PM): heh...head...lol...
Mecuniv (9:08:04 PM): Are you purposly avoiding the question?
Shadow (9:08:18 PM): avoiding what?
Mecuniv (9:08:41 PM): What would you do if someone were to tell you they loved you?
Mecuniv (9:09:45 PM): Hello?
Shadow (9:09:50 PM): hmmm...
Shadow (9:09:51 PM): hello
Shadow (9:11:40 PM): did you leave?
Mecuniv (9:11:46 PM): No...waiting on you...
Shadow (9:12:11 PM): k....what were we talking about?
Mecuniv (9:12:20 PM): -facepalm-
Mecuniv (9:12:36 PM): See above question. ^
Shadow (9:13:05 PM): hmmm...."Hello?"
Mecuniv (9:13:11 PM): Above that...
Shadow (9:13:28 PM): am i trying to avoid the question?
Mecuniv (9:13:33 PM): After that
Shadow (9:13:51 PM): ....."Hello?"....
Mecuniv (9:13:57 PM): ...
Mecuniv (9:14:30 PM): *Note to self* Shadow is as dence as a box of rocks...
Shadow (9:14:53 PM): am not.......
Mecuniv (9:15:21 PM): Then you are just ignoring the fact that I've been talking about you the whole time!
Shadow (9:15:35 PM): maybe....
Mecuniv (9:15:40 PM): Yes...it's you.
Mecuniv (9:15:48 PM): There, I said it!
Mecuniv (9:15:57 PM): /////////////
Shadow (9:16:24 PM): ....what's with the slashes?...i don't get them...
Mecuniv (9:16:32 PM): Blushing marks
Shadow (9:16:37 PM): ah
Mecuniv (9:16:47 PM): Yeah...now that's off my chest.
Shadow (9:17:00 PM): alright
Mecuniv (9:17:26 PM): I've fallen for you, and I think you needed to know that.
Shadow (9:18:12 PM): well it's good you had the courage to admit it....or did i just annoy you too much?
Mecuniv (9:18:20 PM): A little of both...
Mecuniv (9:18:24 PM): You knew?
Shadow (9:18:51 PM): the words "from my heart" don't usualy mean much else...
Mecuniv (9:19:10 PM): Huh? Way back then you knew?
Shadow (9:19:23 PM): i said i wasn't dense...
Mecuniv (9:19:24 PM): ...
Mecuniv (9:19:38 PM): Well, I feel like an idiot.
Mecuniv (9:20:27 PM): Excuse me while I sink into the floor...
Shadow (9:20:53 PM): um....there there...?...
Mecuniv (9:21:06 PM): I can't hear you...I'm in the floor...
Mecuniv (9:21:23 PM): Why didn't you tell me earlier?
Shadow (9:21:40 PM): i liked the game.....
Mecuniv (9:21:45 PM): You would...
Mecuniv (9:22:01 PM): You just wanted me to say it out loud, didn't you?
Shadow (9:22:23 PM): yeah there's that....
Shadow (9:22:54 PM): that and i'm not in good practice with giving straight non ambiguous answers...
Mecuniv (9:23:03 PM): Indeed.
Mecuniv (9:23:30 PM): So...this changes nothing?
Shadow (9:23:47 PM): would you like it to change?
Mecuniv (9:23:56 PM): For the better...
Mecuniv (9:24:36 PM): Yes, I would.
Shadow (9:24:45 PM): alright
Mecuniv (9:24:54 PM): Alright?
Mecuniv (9:25:18 PM): I'm not sure...alright?
Shadow (9:25:33 PM): not sure?
Mecuniv (9:25:46 PM): You're confusing sometimes...
Shadow (9:25:55 PM): yes i am
Mecuniv (9:26:17 PM): I suppose that will have to do for now.
Shadow (9:27:11 PM): if you need explainations i may have to try giving them to you...
Shadow (9:28:45 PM): are you still there?
Mecuniv (9:28:49 PM): Yeah...
Mecuniv (9:29:10 PM): I'm wondering...
Mecuniv (9:29:20 PM): Could you ever love me?
Mecuniv (9:29:30 PM): Or am I chasing air?
Shadow (9:30:19 PM): i like to think of my self as a good combonation of the elements and not just air...
Shadow (9:31:02 PM): but all i can really ask for is loyalty...
Mecuniv (9:31:08 PM): I see...
Shadow (9:33:03 PM): since i don't have much experiance with love i have thought of it as a sort of contract...like most things of power...
Mecuniv (9:33:31 PM): Stop thinking with logic for one second! Please...
Shadow (9:35:01 PM): i hold to my logic because it never hurt me...
Mecuniv (9:35:44 PM): I understand. Believe me I do.
Mecuniv (9:36:11 PM): But, you can't expierience anything good without emotion
Mecuniv (9:36:55 PM): I tryed to base my actions on logic, tryed not to feel any emotion for a dy, it left me empty
Mecuniv (9:37:17 PM): Kitty got mad at me, told me to stop it and be fun again
Mecuniv (9:37:42 PM): Apperently it made her feel bad to see me mopeing around
Shadow (9:38:37 PM): i said i use logic...i didn't say i don't feel...
Mecuniv (9:39:00 PM): Then what do you feel?
Mecuniv (9:39:03 PM): Tell me...
Shadow (9:40:13 PM): i'm not quite sure...the last time i met this emotion i was very young...very innocent...and not very bright...
Mecuniv (9:40:32 PM): But you're older now, wiser
Shadow (9:41:24 PM): the closest i can relate this to though is how my dog acts toward me...
Mecuniv (9:42:21 PM): ...?
Shadow (9:42:26 PM): his loyalty is strong...he cares for very few people other than me...and he's vicious to those who come near me...
Shadow (9:43:21 PM): maybe not the best trained dog...but he's my dog...my snickers...
Mecuniv (9:43:34 PM): So...I'm your pet?
Mecuniv (9:44:03 PM): That's as close as I get?
Shadow (9:44:10 PM): no
Shadow (9:44:10 PM): if you want to be i won't object...
Shadow (9:44:34 PM): i'm just telling you how well my dog meets my standard of loyalty...
Mecuniv (9:44:41 PM): ...
Mecuniv (9:45:22 PM): You won't find a more loyal human than me...
Mecuniv (9:45:35 PM): I've often been hurt because of it.
Mecuniv (9:48:13 PM): So I am just chasing air...
Shadow (9:48:41 PM): not if you can promiss more loyalty than my dog...
Mecuniv (9:48:49 PM): Of course!
Mecuniv (9:49:06 PM): I would never hurt you, you know that
Shadow (9:54:49 PM): i'm just very pessimistic when it comes to this topic....maybe not well rationalized pessimism but that's just how my experiences have left this emotion...trust and love aren't things i'm all too famous for...not for people...i apologise if my behaviors make you feel hurt or uncomfortable...it's just how i've learned to cope...
Mecuniv (9:56:22 PM): I'm pessimistic too...but you have to go for it once in a while. Isn't that was you told me?
Mecuniv (9:56:56 PM): You'll never know until you try, and if you fail, you get back up and dust yourself off.
Shadow (9:57:10 PM): i've lived my life like i might always be alone...i lie alone in my bed and i think of fan fics and scenarios of others...how they might live and love...
Shadow (9:58:01 PM): so not even in my wildest dreams have i thought there would be some one out there for me...and my thoughts of an infinite universe too...
Mecuniv (9:59:18 PM): I felt the same. but I do love you. I love you for who you are, how you make me smile on a daily basis, and brighten my bad mood with your words.
Shadow (10:06:35 PM): can you promiss eternal, unending loyalty...to exist to fufill my needs...to do what it takes to make sure my depressions last for as short a term as possible...to never leave...could you agree to such a contract?...signed in blood fresh from your heart?...can you?
Mecuniv (10:06:56 PM): I can
Mecuniv (10:07:33 PM): I would. I'd vow to protect you from such pain, I know how bad it is
Mecuniv (10:07:44 PM): I'd never want you to feel it
Shadow (10:08:13 PM): then when this world is conqured i can promiss you a throne next mine...
Mecuniv (10:08:41 PM): Good enough I suppose
Mecuniv (10:08:52 PM): I'd take the floor if I had to
Shadow (10:09:12 PM): would you prefer my lap?
Mecuniv (10:09:27 PM): Yes, as long as I'm close to you
Mecuniv (10:09:45 PM): And as long as you're happy
Mecuniv (10:10:39 PM): I'd keep you safe, from anything that would hurt you
Mecuniv (10:12:01 PM): You won't find a more loyal lover...
Mecuniv (10:12:09 PM): mate, whatever
Shadow (10:12:34 PM): then it shall be
Mecuniv (10:12:40 PM):
Mecuniv (10:13:07 PM): Perhaps you could even love me back in time...
Shadow (10:15:07 PM): i'll do my best...and if i could ever hurt you then i would be a lowlier scoundral and snake than found in the deepest, darkest pit...
Mecuniv (10:15:28 PM): You just made me so happy
Shadow (10:15:47 PM): i'm glad
Shadow (10:16:22 PM): i don't offer these things around to just anybody....
Mecuniv (10:16:43 PM): I'm glad, you won't regret it. I promise
Shadow (10:16:58 PM): that's all i can ask
Mecuniv (10:17:14 PM): I have to go now,
Mecuniv (10:17:32 PM): I'm staying the night, so things need to be in order.
Shadow (10:17:46 PM): very well...
Mecuniv (10:17:57 PM): Love you. I'll talk to you tomorrow.
Mecuniv (10:18:10 PM): Sweet dreams
Shadow (10:18:27 PM): and the same to you
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