Bleh. . . So I was thinkin' about it (like I do all the time) and I don't want to be sad about my friend leaving for college. . .
I want to be really happy for her like a good friend should, I mean I am happy for her, but there's other feelings getting in the way of it. Just me being selfish I guess. . .
I used to cry all the time 'cause I knew I'd miss her and she kept saying she would have time to spend with us, but college is kind of a big deal so. . . I wasn't going to get my hopes up.
Then it sorta turned to anger because I know there's nothing I could do to stop her. And if I could stop her I wouldn't because she's chasing dreams and I'm not gonna be the one to hold her back.
Sooooo. . . now I'm just kinda. . . trying not to feel anything 'cause if I do I'm sure it won't be happiness for my best friend (Oh no, 'cause I'm to negative to feel those good feelings! >.< ).
So uh, Nise, if you're reading this, I do want what's best for you and what makes you happy but I can't wrap myself around the idea of you movin' away. Meh. . . maybe it's something I'll just get over, maybe not, but I hate being in a bad mood about it. Urgh. .
Just needed to vent. hah
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You know that phrase "Things are gonna get worse before they get better"? I have a feeling that this is that type of situation. But I know you're strong, and you'll be fine. Besides, it's not permanent, you know?