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The Atlanta trip could've been better, I think.

But then, it could've been a lot worse.

I should've remembered to get my directions and my list of stuff to do.. A couple of other people would've made it better.
And if I got to have caravans going where I wasn't going COMPLETELY OUT OF MY MIND from stress, that would've been better too.

And playing "Go fish" as a drinking game was also a bad idea.

I dunno. We have a couple of things to laugh about now, and things we know not to do next time.

After I dropped off Carrie, I went straight to work. The drive home was not bad at all.
Note to self:
Whenever I'm driving to or from Norcross --
Take I-85.

This trip reaffirmed my hate of Mapquest.

It was an hour to get to the Marta station from my house and 35 minutes to get from the Marta station to my house...

Gah.

Eh, I dunno if I'll plan another meet up for a while.
We could've had some fun, a handful of things hindered that, but eh, whatever. ._.

Anywho...
Leslie asked me last night if I could start coming in earlier. That I do good work and that they likes me, they really likes me.
So, we'll see if that can happen. o _o;

January 5th, 2006, I would've been watching the kids almost every single weekday for 2 years.
That's shocking and, at the same time, explains a lot...

It's been almost two years since I've had total control over my schedule (with the exception of school).
It's been almost two years since I didn't have to change 4+ diapers everyday.
It's been almost a year since I've gotten paid for all that I do for family...

Kim and Chris are hopefully going to be moving and being able to afford daycare for all three kids during the day.
Which means, I can say to Leslie or Susan, "I can work whenever you need me."

And that would mean, me getting closer to my own car and my own apartment/living situation.

And I need to get out soon.

Mom and Dad are working on the paper work to get divorced.
December 21st, they'll have been married for 26 years.
They've been wanting a divorce, for the last 20, or more.
That's a bad percentage...
That 76% of the time that they've been married, my dad's both been actively and passively trying to get a divorce.
That 3 out of 4 kids were really big accidents.

It's sad.
Poor Daddy... ):

There's more of a personal push for me to get out now.
Dad's putting the house in mom's name, while he's been paying for it.
She's been completely dependant on dad, and that's part of the reason he's waited so long for this divorce --

Because she needs him.

But I don't think she'll be able to survive much without him, fianancially anyways.
Car payments are gonna be all her's (for her car, the Camry was paid off upfront), her car insurance is gonna be all her's, the bills and house payments for the house are all gonna be her's...

I need to get out, because I can see the iceburg coming, 9 miles off in the distance...
I need to get out, because after a while, I'm going to be harrassed to pay half of the payments and bills for her...
I need to get out, because she's going to get evicted eventually.

And since I turned 5, I've been helping out in anyway I could.
Cooking.
Cleaning.
Since I turned 16, spending what little money I had to help her out with her bills and food...

I'm going to suggest to mom that she try to find another house.
We don't need that big of a place if I'm going to be moving out and Stephanie's moving into a college dorm this summer. It'll just be Eric and Mom.
I know for a fact, they can get a two bedroom single-wide in a good neighborhood for about $400 a month, with a lot of utilities included...

I'm ready to live a life where I'm not paying for someone else's mistakes.
One where I'm not making my life bad because I'm bending over to help someone else who ******** up...

And before someone offer's, I'm not going to move in with someone else yet.
I want to be self reliant.
I want to have a lack of people.
I want to breathe.

I've lived with 6-10 people all of my life.
Do I really want a roommate? confused

EDIT:
A two-story, one bedroom apartment about 11 miles from where I live:
$415
With gas, electric and water and basic phone included. B: