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heys pp lately i've been think alot. Mostly about my nino(godfather). And how much i miss him sooo much crying but lately i've been really angery with myself for never goign to see him in the hospital when he was alive and i feel like i never even told him how much i luved him. U see he was the kinda godfather who could always make u laughf even if ur dog just got ran over, he was also the kinda guy who always made it seem like a holiday when ever you saw him. He would always give me money even if i didnt do anything all day. Now i regreat never visitign him in the hospital. Thats not even half the problem it took my 1 whole year to finaly except that he was gone, and now i find my self think soo much about him that i start crying crying

Everyday i try to hide my pain for my family and friends behind painful smiles and jokes but during the night i start thinking about him a then i start to cry soo loud that i have to smuther myself with my pillow untill i stop. crying IDK wat will help me


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