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Today, I realized something about myself. I realized that I am not the R&B type, but I like it anyway. I realized that my love for coffee shops, art, poetry, bagel places, ect. had not been recognized until now. I came to the realization that I love the soulful music that you hear in coffee shops, such as I'm Your's by Jason Mraz or Bubbly by Colbie Caillat. And after figuring that out, I figured out a lot about myself. That I don't really want to be a businessman, though I'm good with money. I don't want to travel around the world on business trips, I want to go to enjoy myself and to set myself free. I've become inspired, encouraged, to become a better writer and to write literature that will truly touch peoples hearts as they read it. There are so many ways to say what I am right now, encouraged, inspired, blissful, but there truly are no words for how I feel right now. It is impossible to put this feeling into words. I have truly found the perfect state of mind. And I know, that even though I will lose many of my friends next year as we go our separate paths, I am no longer worried because I know that I will make many new friends, just as wonderful as those that I have now. Whether they come with me as I journey into high school, or whether they leave, I will always have the memories that we share. Nor do I have to worry about fitting in, or anything of the sort. Because I am me, and if I cannot be accepted for myself, then those who I call "friends" are not truly friends. I am preppy, I love anime, I'm going to tryout for cheerleading next year, I love to act, Travel is a goal in my life, Music is my life, and I really, truly do not care about anything anymore. Words cannot explain my contentment.