It's come down to the point where I'm never happy anymore! I don't smile, I don't laugh (even at the stupidest of things...), I cannot find even the smallest pleasure anything anymore...
Now my mind is haunted with enternal thoughts of seeing every almost every single person at my school burn in the Fires. I laugh at the thought sometimes, and hope that someday it will come true...
but then I become somewhat rational, my mind locks the rage away for a short while and allows me to wallow in my misery... that's when thee lock becomes stronger and I no longer feel angry...
... but then something happens to piss me off that sends me into a rampage that may cause me to hurt someone... even someone I love... ?(and no, I don't love anyone at that godforsaken school... I hate them all with a passion... some however, I do hate less than others...)
But now I must learn control, so I can use that rage wisely instead of releasing in one large bout of fury...
To those I do love (ya know like a sister/brother kinda deal... the other love does not exist for me anymore... where that was, only hate resides...) I pray that you never catch me when I'm in one off those furious bouts, for I fear that I may one day harm one of you like I do those damned idiots at my school...
Farewell, may the future bring better news in a later journal...
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and one day, love will happen. I promise. even if its not something you ever allow to happen, you'll fall in love, and someone, somewhere, will fall in love with you (even if you never see it)
it will happen