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breathe. i can not breathe. i am dizzy and everything is spinning out of control.
i want to crawl back in to my void. i long for the void.
boy who smashed heart has resurfaced and is in MY space. MY favorite store.
i will never be loved except for.........
the only boy who may love me i can not love back. not now. i just did not have that click. i feel awful. i do not know what to do. i feel trapped by this fast moving prospect. i do not want to hurt anyone. i know love can not be forced but what if this is it? can i force it? i want to run?
stop stringing me along. i am hurt. i will never find love.
i am sick of myself. i am sick of love that i do not have.
i can not breathe
lead me to the void
let it swallow me
i can not breathe
i can not breathe
i can not breathe
breathe breathe breathe
i can not breathe