I thought we'd be together forever, I was wrong. He called me too obsessed, too clingy.. He even said he still 'loves' me. He doesn't even know the meaning OF 'love'. Really? I feel hurt, yeah. I feel betrayed? All the promises he made were lies. He actually DIDN'T agree. But he never said anything. He didn't tell me how he felt. He just let me run the whole relationship. Now it looks like it's all my fault because he said I 'rushed' into it. And you know what? I did. But I wasn't obsessed. No, no. That was surely not a thing of me. He was the clingy one.. And the confused one. I quote, "After that whole Jose thing, I feel confused." Oh? That means you didn't believe me. You didn't trust me. You didn't trust my judgment at all. He filled my head with a bunch of words that made me feel needed. The first ever 'boyfriend' that made me feel like I was really someone. Like I was really special. Now look at it. It was ruined yet again. Not by me, but him. He should have said something, and I shouldn't have rushed. I do feel stupid, also betrayed. I told him I wasn't a keeper. He just didn't believe me. I knew it would end this way. I'm not going to cry my life all over him. No sirree. I'll just let it all go.. I'm not saying I'll forget all that has happened. That day he told me to hold his 'magical shoe' was the day he made me smile. That day I won't forget. Now it's time for me to move on. Do I still love him? Yeah. I do, but in time, I'll forget that love. Well, not forget, but get over it. And I won't be 'online dating' anymore. Yuck. D: It was the worst experience.. And I won't be looking for a new boyfriend. My Gosh. I see now they're temporary. Thanks Panda for showing me that. Now, I'll just look for that person I'll spend the rest of my life with. No more broken hearts for me. I know now, that Panda wasn't that person, isn't that person, and will Never be that person.
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