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hm.... i dont really know why.... but ive caught myself staring outside during the day and watching butterflies outside.... and i keep thinking about what it would be like being a butterfly. i think these thoughts are also the reason to my appearance. the wings represent want i want to be, and the chain on my neck represents what i am.

you are born as something unnoticed, so you are able to observe the world and prepare yourself for what will come to you in later life, and not be thrown into it unprepared like all other creatures on this earth.

you can wrap yourself up in your blankets and sleep for the cold and dreary months of the year. changing without having to watch all the terrible things in the world and make it affect your grown, and being able to stay innocent.

you are reborn into a world of green, filled with young and innocence. you are admired for your beauty by all the other creatures of the world, and are awed in your ability. you can fly away from the terrors of the world and watch those who are destroyed by it without having it trap you as well.

you fall in love and have your offspring, that will live the same beautiful life as you. and then you die.

all in the span of a year.

you never feel the pain that those of us trapped on the ground feel, that can't just hide in our beds and let the evil pass us by. that can't escape those who are destroyed and the illness that grips us all in the end. you can fall in love and not have to worry about losing the one, and not have to watch as your children are consumed by the truth in our world. and you can die in peace.

you can fly away..... and I'm still stuck here.....