today i walked in the rain after school, for the first time in my life
it actually felt good. sometimes you just have to let that special someone play in the rain and not fear of her getting wet and sick, cos she may actually enjoy it . this time apart will do us good, i still do care about her and always willbut there are other things that are more important right now. like the exams, my moms mental health and white day. sean and i have actually picked up from where we left last year on the plans for white day, it is going ot be shocking. i managed to study quite alot today, thank god i did. i gtg go study more now, maybe my bro will want to play some death metal after studying.
ms.huneik
sometimes, people just won't accept things about others and may never will. there is nothing you can do about that, even though there were more good times than bad.
me: everythings fine, you don't have to do anything. honestly.
ms.huneik: i know what your thinking right now, i will not allow you to just let it pass like this. im getting whitney now
me: no, theres no need for that
m.h: if you leave this unsolved today, im preety sure i won't see you tomorrow
me: but, there no need to call whitney
m.h: *walks out of the room and says to the secetary* don't let him leave the room and make sure he does not do anything to himself
me: dammit, im in deep s**t now, ******** crap
m.h: *comes out of nowhere and pats me on the back* everything will be fine
me: (O_O" wink
m.h: *walks out again*
what happened today was preety shocking to me too, she knew what was on my mind and i just wanted to avoid it all. she is a good person, but would it have been better off if this did not happen ?
im sure everything will be better then ever after this, i guess im sure, i hope.
i don't want to lose her, but its her choice anyway and i just have to deal with it. i will always love and care for her, i can't do anything now, i feel weak and useless but nothing i can do can help it, because i already did all i could.
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but what im thinking right now is "did they broke up?"
well I think I will hear that soon,
though theres one thing that btohers me,
you say you will always love her, but I dont think you will,
you said the same too me, but you forgot me anyway
(okeey I know why you did but still I think its not true after all)
aah well I hope you will feel better soon,
it kinda hurts me too read your journal the past few days,
read al the s**t you've been into,
and whitney's one makes it al worser,
maybe I just care too much for my friends*sigh*
dude this is the longest comment I ever wrote in a journal, maybe I should quit xD
goodluck with everything <3*big hug*