Over the course of the past few days, I've been in complete bitchmode. I haven't been happy with anything, I've had a short fuse, I've been very emotional and pretty blunt and to the point with just about everything. I've been absolutely terrible, I was drowning in my own bitchiness. I'm feeling much better though, it's scary what PMS can do to a girl if she doesn't stay in control.
I realized a few things while I was in my rough and tumble state of mind. For one, I upset a lot of people, made them angry, and I can tell because pretty much all of them aren't talking to me right now. It's kind of upsetting to me, only for the fact that normally friends are supposed to be there to give you the smack down and tell you what's up if you're having a hard time with something, not just get frustrated and leave... I mean, I don't blame them for leaving, but I don't like it when I'm just given up on...
Because sometimes, it's nice having just ANYONE to talk to... Last night, one of the most unexpected of people just sat and listened to me, gave their opinion on a few things, but mostly just sat and listened, and let me pour my heart out. I'm feeling incredibly vulnerable and open from it right now, but I'm feeling much, much better. It was someone that, for a few weeks, I had my mind set that they were an enemy, but after talking for a little while, my mind is a little more open about some things. Friend or foe, evil a*****e or perfect person, everyone needs someone to talk to. Everyone. It doesn't matter who they are.
I also learned that when your friends refuse to speak to you, sometimes it's easier to go to an enemy or someone who won't judge you for your actions upon others.
Be the light in someone's life.
I realized a few things while I was in my rough and tumble state of mind. For one, I upset a lot of people, made them angry, and I can tell because pretty much all of them aren't talking to me right now. It's kind of upsetting to me, only for the fact that normally friends are supposed to be there to give you the smack down and tell you what's up if you're having a hard time with something, not just get frustrated and leave... I mean, I don't blame them for leaving, but I don't like it when I'm just given up on...
Because sometimes, it's nice having just ANYONE to talk to... Last night, one of the most unexpected of people just sat and listened to me, gave their opinion on a few things, but mostly just sat and listened, and let me pour my heart out. I'm feeling incredibly vulnerable and open from it right now, but I'm feeling much, much better. It was someone that, for a few weeks, I had my mind set that they were an enemy, but after talking for a little while, my mind is a little more open about some things. Friend or foe, evil a*****e or perfect person, everyone needs someone to talk to. Everyone. It doesn't matter who they are.
I also learned that when your friends refuse to speak to you, sometimes it's easier to go to an enemy or someone who won't judge you for your actions upon others.
Be the light in someone's life.
