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You know.. A student - whether still in school, or a recent graduate of high school or collage - should be happy that summer is here. But to be honest.. I hate it. Don't get me wrong, I hate school, and I do sometimes look forward to summer, but.. All in all, my summers aren't very fun.

I have to stay home to watch my brothers every other week. And.. I seem to loose any contact with friends. Every one of them. They're always busy doing fun stuff. So if they talk about something that they are going to do, I wish I was there. Then, my dad also goes to work, so it's actually very lonely during the day. What's worse is that he's going to get a night job, so that part of the day is going to be lonely, too. Then the times my dad isn't at work, I can't go anywhere because of that stupid restraining order - he didn't even do anything. I have to be the witness since I'm an adult. I would go somewhere when he's at work, if I could drive, and if I didn't have any busy friends. All in all, a pretty much bad summer. Another thing is.. I generally don't care for myself when it comes to meals.. I'll eat breakfast. If the boys aren't here, no matter how hungry I am.. I won't make myself lunch or dinner either. Besides.. I'm not a very good cook. I guess I'll eat snacks, but very few of them. There's just no point in eating usually when you've got nothing to do.

I'm getting my braces removed on friday. Dad says it isn't going to hurt, but I doubt that. They ******** nearly GLUE those things to your teeth!! Yeah.. With some "safe adhesive" that can only be dried by a blue laser. Oh, and guess what I just found out? Apparently, orthodontists "realize" that the bottom teeth never stay straight with a retainer, so I get to have a PERMANENT one. Lovely. I get metal in my mouth for the rest of my life. Dad says "no one will see it." I could care less! The fact is, I'll feel it there.

Today just really sucks...