Today was one of the worst days ever. It was suppose to be a really good day since Gakupo would be on all day. But, it wasn't...Now, I don't know what to feel. I don't know what he truly feels and it hurts. A lot. I love Gakupo like no one else. I love him with all my heart and my soul...And he is the center of my world. I give him all of my attention and I'm faithful to him. I would never lie to him. A friend of mine here on gaia gave me the impression that he is cheating on me with some girl? I don't know what's going on there..But, I usually wouldn't believe it right on the spot. But, I'm having doubts...Maybe it's because I don't know what to think about anything right now? Or maybe it's because I'm so depressed at the moment that I can only think of negative outcomes? I don't know what it is...But I am really having doubts...Even though I love him. I know that Gakupo and I aren't really together irl, but I love him as if we were...Meaning the hurt is as if we were together irl...And right now, it feels as if we have broken up (Even when we didn't). It feels as if my heart is being ripped to shreads in my chest and my eyes sting from all the tears and I have a headache..I'm sure my eyes are red as well...I've been crying for over an hour. I just feel like I want to die...And I'm even tempted to quit Gaia...Tell me what you think of all this?
lxlMiss Undertakerlxl · Mon Jul 13, 2009 @ 10:35pm · 5 Comments |