For the first time in a long while, I feel really hopeful again, as if nothing could go wrong now. I know it's still a possibility that something bad happens, but I want to stay positive. For myself, and for him. For us.
So much has happened in a few months. A couple of times we've been close to breaking up, but... we managed to fix things and stay strong. We might've become even stronger than before, to be honest.
We've had to change our plans countless times already, but the path we're on now seems more stable than before..
He was supposed to come spend Christmas with me, but his parents won't let him. Saying they have a bad feeling about it, blah blah blah. I know they're worried, but that's just ridiculous. And when he said he'd want to study over here they flipped and said they'd disown him if he did. So... that leaves me with little choice but to go over to the US myself. -sigh.- It's more expensive, more difficult... but for him, I'd do anything. And at least he'll support me financially, with the tickets and visa etc..
He said that his parents told him he could move into the condo they have back in Miami. That would be awesome and we wouldn't have to worry about enormous housing costs. I could even take my pets with me..
We're gonna get engaged when I go over, and I made him promise he'd marry me within a year from that. Next summer seems most likely.
Now the only fear that I have is that my visa application would be turned down. I hope that doesn't happen, since we have everything planned out okay.. and he'd help me get a job too. He knows Miami pretty well, having grown up there... and I could maybe start doing commissions for a little extra income..
So we'd be able to support ourselves no problem, but, well, officials can be hard to convince at times. We'll have to see. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.. I want to be with my prince so bad.
So bad, I'll go to the other side of the world, to a foreign country, just to be able to see him face to face. To hold his hand and tell him I love him. It just isn't the same through a microphone, even with the webcam on.
I've never loved anyone else like this. I love my family, and I love my friends dearly, but now that I have to choose... I choose him. We've agreed to come visit Finland at least once a year, and I can see my friends and family then. I just... want us to be happy, and to stay together.
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