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Tuesday, 18 August 2009
I feel a throbbing pain in my chest.I don't know why I feel so "heartbroken" right now. I mean there's no reason for me to now that I think about it.

I just feel so isolated from him I guess. Everytime we talk, there's something wrong. I asked for us to be friends for a while, and now he doesn't even bother trying to contact me. I mean, I kind of figured that'll happen, but I didn't want it to.

Maybe he need time to clear h is head? But it doesn't take almost a week for that, does it? I knew it'll hurt him, but seriously? I only said be friends for a while, not for eternity. I still love him, I just hate my mixed feelings about him.

And I hate having to put him through that, so therefore, I asked for us to be friends for a while so I can see what I want and need.

No email. No phone call. No I.M, NO FACEBOOK MAIL, NO COMMENT ON MYSPACE. no type of communication whatsoever. I mean, we were BOTH on stickam the same time, I was LIVE he could've easily just joined to talk about it. Did he? NO.

He can't be that hurt, because I told him I wouldn't want to see other people, no until I know rather or not this friendship thing would be official.

But then, he takes it seriously. I just hate the fact that he acts so childish. He's a few years older than me, and he acts like hes MY age.

Besides, in a few months we wouldnt be able to date anymore, He'd be 18.