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Let me start off by saying I been away for a very long time. An it will be a while longer before I return. I have been holding on to my past. To long have I been dependent on old friends for help. An by this I mean some of you have truly lost that ability to make me smile. I will be letting you all go now. The ones that bring me pain when all I have ever done is selflessly given. People are weak and stupid. I normal hide this side of me. But it's time I let this side out of it's cage. Some of you been walking on me. I'm sorry, but I'm sure you all knew it would happen one day. I will not be that person to help you off your a** with a smile and helping hand with no questions asked. I will not be the one to cheer you on any more. I'm giving up on a few other things as well. I'm of sick of it all. The so called "friends" that only talk to you when they need something. How annoying... "Can I borrow 40$?" "You think I can use this for a little while?" "Can I borrow your phone for a while?" "I spent all my money. I'll pay ya back next week. Don't worry." "I forgot. Sorry about that." "I fell asleep. Next time, ok?" "Do you think you can do this for me? I'll help you out next time."

Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry sorry.

This word has lossed it's meaning for me. As sad as that is I think I will be a lot happier now that I will be that other person. Just a little change. Those of you that have been good to me needn't worry at all. I will still be the same for you. I have had a lot of time to think about this.To much so. A week or two before this was posted, I broke down. I couldn't talk, I couldn't look at people, I was filled with nothing be hate for everyone and everything. I closed my self off from people for that short time. I felt bad for it later. I was hit with some news from someone I know and trusted very much. It changed a lot of things for me. I can't stand people that can't keep there word or people that can't say what they really mean. I'm done with it.

On a lighter note, I have found some new friends I can count on. They have more then proven them selfs time and time again. They have passed every test I have thrown at them with flying colors and I hold them in the highest respects. Trust, it is something I have with them. An while it is only a few people, I'll take them over the many. A lot of you won't like this new me. An this is the last and only time I will say this, "I'm sorry." I'm sure some of you know this line very well.

Just so some of you don't worry. (This is more for Jelly then any one else. lol) I'll be deleting numbers names and friends. I'll be messaging/calling/talking to the people I will be keeping around. That means you Jelly. XP So stop hiding from me. You been a good friend.