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I have no idea why but i feel like the biggest loser in the world.
I've lost like 99.9% of all my friends and it's mainly my fault.
I AM THE WORST FRIEND ANYONE COULD EVER HAVE. stressed
I lost my bestest friend for the most stupidest reasons.
She made me feel better every time i felt like crap. heart
Now all she does is talk crap about me & all i can do is sit there and get frustrated.
We tried being friends like millions of times again but it never worked.
We always fought in the end. cry
My other friend was probably the sweetest kid I've ever met.
He's amazing & i left him because he wouldn't listen & i felt like i didn't deserve him.
I shattered him & lost like a million friends.
This next kid is like my escape from hell.
But she owns a computer and i'm addicted so i sometimes get trapped in cyberspace & tell myself i'll get off but never do. whee
She's currently sleeping because i never got offline. sad
My play mum is the sweetest lady i've ever met.
But we hardly talk anymore and it's like she doesn't want to tell me what's wrong.
I'm the biggest FAILURE at keeping friends.
& the way i treat them is terrible.
I never call. Write. or Try to even talk sometimes because it'd been forever since the last time and it feels weird.
xp I SWEAR I'M THE BIGGEST ******** UP IN HISTORY.