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So anyone who's been keeping up with the Naruto on onemanga.com knows that there is a distinct possibility that Kisame is dead. And though I may feel miserable about it, I am not that pathetic that i will let it bother my daily life. It wouldn't matter much, because I'm already about as depressed as I can get. Why? Because there is three weeks until my birthday.

I know birthdays are meant to be a time of joy and celebration, but I, like hundreds of other children on the planet, am unfortunate enough to have a family. I know they care,and i know they try, but sometimes, I wish they wouldn't. I hate having my hopes raised for at least a little attention on my birthday, but something always 'comes up.' Last year, when asked what I wanted for my birthday, I answered a drawing tablet for my computer. That was it. It was my sweet sixteenth, and I didn't want a party, or friends over, or anything, but that simple drawing tablet. I didn't even care if it was new or used. Hell, I wouldn't have minded one that didn't work, but at least someone tried.

Of course, my birthday came and went, and my little brother broke his arm, while my little sister had a presentation at her school, so I had nothing. Then Christmas came and I got new shoes. Then the new year came and went, and I didn't say a thing about my forgotten birthday, but that's fine, I can live with that. It's in the past, but now it's almost my seventeenth year of being alive, and I don't think I could stand someone asking what I'd want for my birthday. I don't even think people at school even know it's my birthday. That's really kinda sad. I don't want to tell them though, I'd rather just forget that it comes around at all. Perhaps I should just turn seventeen and not have a birthday after that.

That way, I'll be seventeen forever. I suppose that's what i want for my birthday.