Mark Twain
Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first
So does that mean that everything is on a first come first serve basis? Now that I think about it, isn't that what high school is? That whole dominance of seniors over freshmen is just a celebration of one being born three years before the other. It has absolutely nothing more to it than that. I will say though, that freshmen can be obnoxious, but so can seniors! Some people just never get out of their 'freshman' stage.
Getting back on topic, I wonder what would ones life be like if they were born a year earlier? I know that if I was born only a few months earlier I would be graduating this year, and maybe I'd move out before my brother, who has been home forever. I do hope he gets a job though. The military says he doesn't weigh enough. I never imagined that would be a problem, he eats ramen at all hours of the day/night.
Still, it's a good quote. I sometime like to entertain myself and think I'm not spoiled, but I am. I have so much crap, and I whine about forgotten birthdays. Please. I know in the back of my mind, that I shouldn't feel entitled to it, and I know I'm not, but I like to think that maybe someone could make me feel entitled, in some way. Maybe that's why last year was so emotional. No one got me anything, but my friends were awesome about it, and we had a party at school, ditching half our classes to party all over the base. We were crazy sophomores, dissing all the seniors and making fun of all the teachers. I don't know how we afforded anything, but we did, and I wonder what my family was thinking when they couldn't afford my birthday? When they realized that they couldn't pay for me did they think, "We shouldn't tell her, maybe she'll forget." or was it deeper than that? Was it, "We can't afford this one day, we should at least try to show her how desperate we are?"
So instead of a birthday, I sat on the couch, watching TV, while my parents gripped in front of my about how the bills were paid and how we could just afford food. What a birthday. I get to feel depressed about being poor, and depressed about being selfish on my birthday.
That's just one more thing that bothers me. my emotional distress, but that's a topic for another entry.
