i feel like the boy that crys wolf or some stupid fairy tale like that. i have been thinking and thinking about what i want to do...and i know that everyone changes what they want...or there dreams...its about growing i know this but....i do it to much in my eyes...maybe i don't, i don't know....i just know that i want to not be an architect anymore...it seamed interesting and a good job...hell and i knew it payed well ^_^....but there are going to be to many of them comeing out soon.....people want the pluses that i have seen....so i am going to go to a area where it will be more likly that i might get a job that is in demand.....i am not really sure about what area...if i should go into electronical engineering or mechanical....anything i dk all the ways i could go as of today but i am sure its going to be interesting as an engineer...and it pays ok i guess....
well i don't want to talk all that much...i am living and thinking to often to care about the things i am thinking and doing to really understand what they are...i hope my mind does not escape me and i become a husk of a fool than i am already (hey i can say what i like about myself...i know i am a hypocrite...but i self-destruct...it does not mean i will sit down and see others do the stupid thing that i do about my choices and self with out me trying to constantly change there mood...even if i become annoying i will be always there ...the little p***k in your big toe...just instead of pain i try to make you feel better and feel happy about life...i know lol a bad comparrison but hey...what can you do when you only see life as the next minute coming and not the joy of whats happening at that second *shrugs*)
well i don't think myself as in a bad mood, being sad, being mad or even being emo-ish about life...i just think i have things in waiting and some of lifes little things that bother most, don't matter all that much; i just want the few pleasures of life and thats all......
will post again later bye........
All ways thinking....thinking......thinking..... thinking...thinking
 Affliction of the mind · Tue Jan 31, 2006 @ 10:24pm · 0 Comments |
