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Well, you see..
seeing your entire life flash before your eyes in an instant.
It feels like, it feels like you wasted your entire life, unable to let go.
Unable to let things in.
Closed in a box, sealed tightly, with no light coming in.
Then one day...
When your life is seen so clearly before your eyes.
Then you wake up and pain is all you feel, and think.
Thank you, to who, that's anyone's judgment.
Bright lights, beaming, so bright, but it can't be the end can it?
The pain is far too intense for that.
Then you realize your in a hospital bed, and your family is leaning over the cool steel.
You don't know how or when, or what, or why.
But the pain reminds you, that its not a dream, its real, all too real.
So when your life flashes before your eyes, what do you see?
You see everything, like your living your life again in fast forward, but in slow motion.
Then by some, happening your awake and lights are burning your eyes.
You think, God, I haven't been true to myself, you say.
Something is in the way of progress, in the way of life.
Such pain though, your mind is dizzy with it, or is that the medication?
Your reminded of all the things that you refused, and all the emotions of it hit you harder then you could ever think emotions could feel.
Your eyes begin to water, and you feel over powered with emotion.
You realize things you should have before, like love and life, and the big picture.
Maybe you know your place now, know what should be, what needs to be.
So maybe, just maybe its worth it, just one last time, I'll try to find that place...