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Hello Friend.
I know, it's been so long.
I miss you, too.
How's life?
I'm sorry.
Wish I knew how to help you.
I can't see you.
It's complicated, I don't want to hurt your feelings.
Your problems are too much for me.
I know that you can't help the things that have happened to you
or that there aren't many people there to help you,
but I just can't do it anymore.
I love you so much, but being around you I feel so fake.
Ever since our fight I've had to put on the mask that agreed with everything you say so as not to lose you again.
I'm sorry, you need professional help.
You need to stop hurting yourself.
You need to stop hurting the people around you.
I tried for so long to help you.
But if you don't let me help you, then I can't do anything.
I'm so tired of having to deal with all of your problems
and i know that selfish
I know you helped with mine.
But im getting dizzy from your roundabout ways
You can't blame everything on him anymore
you know your responsible to
If you're goingto survive, in this cruel, dark world
then you have to push your past back.
Tell it to kiss your a** and stand up.
Let go of the restraints and finally see the future and not the past.
See who you can become not who you were.
Change your life.
I changed mine,
It just takes work and time.